my friend think im happy but im really not

my friend and parents think im happy but fact im not i suffer from depression i take meds for that but im still not happy.my guy friends arent helping any ether they want me to do weed w/ them and do shit with them but i dont so they give me a hard time about it! Some people i tell some stuff to i dont even trust anyone anymore!!! in 6th grade i tryed to kill myself ,this year i cut but i stopped i dont wanna sound emo or anything but i feel like i wanna hurt myself so bad im to scared to even cut!!!please help

 

This is just a phase you are going through in your life. Every teenager goes through it. You're trying to figure out who you are and its really hard. I was exactly like you. Even if you dont want to, if you really think you're in that much trouble (like you might hurt yourself) tell someone about it. Get some help. If the burden is too hard to carry alone (which it sounds like it is), share it. Talk to your parents. Im sure they will be there for you no matter what. Im sure some of your friends even have thoughts like these. There are people around you that are there for you and will help you if you ask. I hope everything works out.

 

I cut. I can relate with the wanting to hurt yourself so much. It's a horrible habit to get into. Get yourself some help before you get too wrapped up in it to stop. Please? PM me if you ever want to talk...about anything.

 

puberty brings hormones, which activate neural growth. if the brain is frantic in its attempts to collaborate new neurons, this can manifest confusion, and subsequently depression.

 

None of my friends know that I suffer with depression either, I used to self harm at your age too. I think it's a faze and you should get over it, you can always tell your docter how you feel and it's confidential. Also, don't give in to peer pressure. If you don't want to smoke the weed (which is sensible) then don't, it's far cooler to be different and to be true to yourself, you'll look back on this when your older and be proud that you were too strong to be tempted into drugs. And try to get some new and decent friends. Try not to worry to much and be happy, honey.