Okay sorry this is going to be long but i need help i havent told anyone this full story. So there is this girl in my highschool that i didnt meet until i was a junior we never talked sophmore year and i didnt go to that school my freshman year. She use to date one of my good friends sophmore year and he took her virginity then dumped her for someone else. about a year later when i meet her in my math class i wasnt immediately attracted to her but she was attracted to me. She use to text me non stop almost every day and call me asking for math help even tho she really didnt need it and i knew that. Shes a nice girl and very sensitive and insecure about her self. We were just talking not dating from about january to april and she was telling that she didnt want any commitment and that was fine with me because at this point i just wanted to mess around with her not to be in a relationship. During this time i messed with a different girl and she freaked out even tho she said she didnt want commitment. so this is where things get complicated, she then tells me she doesnt want me messing around with anyone else now. I said okay thats fine but i didnt really mean it. About a month after that she is giving me hints like she wants a boyfriend saying "i mean if i had a boyfriend" in every day conversation that went on for about 2 weeks then i finally asked her out. so we were dating for a while and she took my virginity around may. ( the first couple times we tried it didnt work bcuz i was nervous and couldnt stay hard) it almost made us break up a couple times because we couldnt have sex but we finally did. then summer came we and we started arguing alot over dumb things and i was gone alot because of football camps and etc. in august she broke up with me and said she wanted space saying she loves me but is not in love with me. i fought to get her back hard and she wasnt budging but was still very friendly and would still text me she told me she never hooked up with anyone while we were single .i finally got her to go back out with me in the beginning of senior year when i asked her to wear my jersey to the big football game she didnt want to right off the bat but a little flirting with another girl pushed her to wear it, after a scored a touchdown in the big game she really wanted me sending me texts and talking to me alot again without me starting the convo. We went to homecoming together and all the parties and were having a good couple of months i bought her a really good christmas present and saw her new years eve and even sent her flowers randomly in january just because. then we started arguing over dumb things again and she broke up with me once again right before my bday feb 1. she still visted me on my bday and got me a really good present but didnt give me a kiss or anything. I was begging for her back but she wouldnt budge again. i also still had her fb password and i saw she messaged my good friend (her ex) telling him to come over. this was a big dramatic episode between us three and she claims shewasnt intending on hooking up with him she just wanted to be friends with him again bcuz she doesnt wanted any grudges before she goes walks across that stage when she graduates they stopped talking when we started dating . it was believable to me because in no way is she a slut at all i was the 3rd person she had sex with and she insecure like that. In the meantime i had sex with 2 other people (she still doesnt know about) to try to get my heart and mind off of her but i didnt do anything it was just meaningless sex. I stopped talking to her completely for about a week and she would come up to me and say she misses talking to me and stuff like that which was really hard for me bcuz i was trying no contact. she also called sometimes an i didnt answer. she kept trying to talk as friends and she called one day and i cried my eyes out to her on the phone because i was so miserable without her i was even considering suicide ( but wouldnt because of my religion) she ended up wanting to get back together saying she never hooked up with anyone while we were broken up. We went to prom together and spent the entire week senior week together having a good time fighting a couple nights because we were drunk but never breaking up. we planned on not going out with each other in college our schools are 1 hour 30 min apart but no cars. She claims she doesnt want to be with anyone else and we talk about getting married sometimes . what should i do? i love this girl with all my heart i want to keep her around shes on my mind 24/7
The first girl I fell in love with was in my class at school & we were both aged about 7-8. Unfortunately her parents moved to another part of the country & I never saw her again. She was a real cute blonde.
