He wanted to be at home. I was laying beside him near the end. It was late at night and I was so exhausted from caring for him over the last week that I fell asleep. I woke during the night and his breathing had stopped. It was dark. I put my ear over his mouth. I was both terrified and in shock. I didn't want to put on the light to see him... I'm still having a tough time dealing with this.
Virtual bro hug to you for your loss Tman. If you can, please seek grief counseling. Wish you the best mental health care throughout your self recovery.
Sorry that this happened @Tman58 I agree with Pete about grief counseling. Are there other surviving family members who are also grieving that you could talk to about this? Wishing you good things.
Sadly, the death of our parents is something that we all have to suffer twice during our lifetime, but although we know that it will happen one day, we try to blank our minds. Time does heal, but I still remember the death of my father 62 years ago. Console yourself with the fact that you did everything possible and you were with him during his final hours. When you are feeling low, try to remember him in life, rather than during his last few days.
Thanks for that. The memories have been good. We had a good relationship. I have my mom to care for now.
I am glad that you are not alone at a time like this. When you are chatting to your mom, try to focus on your father during the good times that you all shared together.
