i fucked up this day. we were going to see "the aviator", and we boughtticket,s nad we went in and it was CROWDED! i mean, the only seats were in the front, and that's bad for the eyes, so i went in and saw that there wa a seat about 4 rows back from the front, but i wanted to see if there were any other available seats, so i walked around, well, i gave up about a minute later and went back to out seats, which were already taken by then. i got mad and cussed a little. every open seat was reserved, and while i was trying to find a seat i thought my boyfriend was gonig too slow (and i regret this) so i pulled on him and told him we should go find more seats. oops. really. i didnt mean to. i just reacted. i was staning up deciding whether to leave or not (during the beginning of the first preview) and the woman behind me angrily (even though i'd been standing for about 30 seconds) said "would you sit down" so i scremed "fuck" (i have a temper) but i didnt say anything rude to her, and i was looking the other way when i did. then, as my boyfriend was going to our seats, he accidneltly hit the owmans foot and she screamed "ow" and was mad at hm like he did it on purpose. then i left to go get a refund, but when i was out there decided against it, because i needed to see it for extra credit for my art of film class. well, as i was comming back in the fucker ahead of me moved back his seat (not his fault i know, but it made me angry) and pused me into the people who already didnt like me. everytime i passed i said sorry. and excuse me. well, my boyfriend didnt want to stay anymore nad he was mad at me, so we left. on the way out i could see that the people were mad (now, i've had people dop MUCH worse than pass infront of me while the PREVIEWS were showing) and i said we sont be comming back and it was the last time, and when we wre leaving and wouldnt be comming back in the fat man said "well, i'd hope not" him and his bitchy high classs wife. fuck. i cussed the whole way out. i know, i'm a bitch adn i REALLY need to control my temper. i hate myself for that, but people were rude to me before i was rude to them. well, i think. maybe not. im not sure if i should ever go in public again due to the fact that i can't control myself (i dont like control and how its a "perfect" society if you follow the standard rules of how you should act in public). he's so mad he doesnt want to talk to me. i cried the whole way home. i;m very sorry. he'll probably be mad at me if he finds out that i posted this.