i havent been here in a while, not that i suspect any of you missed me or noticed hut you know, i got to wash behind my own ears sometime.. its the holidays, im not too caught up in xmas as i am new years. i think the new year is an important day for old mother earth. if you take time to follow the seasons anyhow. one more year of infinite possibility and chance. i love it... aside from that i have been drinking quite a lot. i dont think its bad but i think it is wrse than good. if i could manage keeping fine off a buzz thats one thing but when im sloshed thats of no good. just confliction.. the weathers been beautiful. i arose today to a cloudy overhead, much to my enjoyment i welcomed the day.. i also woke up lonely and enlightened with some sweet sadness. i feel the loss again of a lover ive never had. wishing that my time was soon to come and my satisfaction will be returned. satisfaction is not my hope though, the undoubting acceptance of having someone as my own still lurks me. i just wish destiny for me, was a woman, who sees the world i see. i do not see a money hungry world, i see a world full of secrets that are not hiding, theyre just discreet. i want to understand the tide not the cost. value is in the beauty of things; human nature; or simply nature. value is not found in a material thatw as created to make a profit of anysort. thats crap brothers and sisters. wake out of denial if thats how you see it... the same story for another day.. i woudl say it gets old but it doesnt. i am just not creatve enough. but i will return, as i always do.. i hope youre all well and have had wonderful holidays and will continue so. embrace the coming of new friends.. my peace and love go out to all of you.
I thought this post was about the morning, literally. I've realized that in the morning my thought patterns are just right, I don't complicate things and my anxiety is at a minimum.
