I'm so afraid of death. It has to be my biggest fear. I'm not comfortable with my mortality. I know I will die one day like everyone else in the world. I'm just not content with this fact... I can't hold grudges. I always have "Well what if that person passes away and I never get to tell them that I actually cared about them" running through my head. It's impossible for me. It's horrible... Every time my parents take too long to get home... I fear for the worst. Maybe they got into a car accident. My mother doesn't wear her belt and apparently not very many people survive being thrown through a windshield. I wouldn't be able to live with myself. Maybe I feel this way because I don't really have "family". I have been disowned by default... so I suppose I hold onto things. Put greater value on things... which can't be bad I guess. Suppose everything that I've ever been through has just caused me to depise loss even more. The whole 2012 thing... I'll die before I'm 21 if the world really does end. I haven't even begun to live yet. I'm still in the process of being brainwashed by highschool staff so that I end up a "beautifully molded student". There are so many things I want to experience... This thought has always plagued me. I'm just going to stop now before I get the chance to talk about my twisted past.
At least someone understands what I'm talking about. People have their religious comforts, you know? That they'll go some place with "gold paved roads"... What if you just go in the ground and rot? If I knew there was life after death I think I'd be more content. I like quantum physics. Maybe our soul escape our bodies and travel to different universes. Either way. That's something that can keep me awake at night.
I suppose that most people have these fears but manage to keep them "in check", atleast somewhat. At 16 you have your freedom, but are generally still reliant on your parents, so perhaps it is also the thought of that support leaving you. Many people will claim they know of an afterlife but i have to wonder whether they really do. I know several religious people, and well enough to realize that their fear of death is just as great as anyone elses. Then again, perhaps religion is for you, and who am i to say that comfort (even truth) cannot be obtained through this? Also, i think the only difference between you and everyone else could be that you are not going out of your way to ignore this fear. My personal thoughts are something like yours. I believe that the soul goes on, definately. Also, maybe you could begin to further explore your thoughts (if you haven't already). This may give you some sort of peace for the time being. Sounds like you could do with a friend, so feel free to pm me.
Im totaly different, Im not afaird of death. Im afraid of the pain of death. But I tought a LOT about it and end up accepting death. Hell, im even realy exited to feel the afterdeath! Of course I dont wish to die soon cuz I still want to try so many things! Remember that death is not the end, only a transition.
Fearing death is something natural for everyone, I guess. It's the end, or better put, we don't know what comes after it. As for the world ending, I don't believe in that stuff. They've said that many times...
Fuck the 2012 shit. How many people said the world would end in 2000? Come on. You're smarter than that.
At some period, yes. But I think you grow out of it at some point. I was scared as hell of The Black Hole and the empty infinity when I was a kid, it terrified me, I was on the verge of panic attacks more than once. But you mature and realize it's not that simple. Although my Dad actually fears death a lot and would probably live to be 200 if it was possible. And he's 38 so.. go figure.
lol i stopt fearing of death a long time ago. i know i wont go to hell coz religion is bullshit but i know after life exist i talkt to ghost when i was a small kid and another thing my very first memory is of my mom learning to surf once i told that to her and she said that she did even knew my dad at that time. so after death u become a spirit and u can stay and walk around as a ghost which sounds fun to me,or reincarnate shoos yuor new parents and start over again. there is simple no reason to fair of death its just a part of life its like a restart button xD
that is so sweet. i've never met a girl who doesn't hold a grudge. most girls hold them damn grudges. you seem very nice musikal
