missing the person who has caused me the much pain!

i never imagined this was possible... but i think i miss my ex girlfriend who has been cheating on me for months. i mean i dont want to go back with her since i dont love her anymore but i definitely miss talking with her, seeing her etc.

over 6 months have passed since our separation but i found myself thinking about her everyday(good and bad thoughts)

meanwhile i've had drugs, sex, alcohol and even a gf thinking they would help me to forget but they havent.

though my ex gf doesnt care at all about me... she has been with that guy and promised him that she would never contact me.

if i see her tomorrow i dont know what would my reaction be like! either i would grab her throat and stangle her or i would hug tighly her and cry for hours.

 

you sound almost obsessed... shut yourself down when you start thinkign about her. i mean, when you catch yuorself thikning about her, make yoursefl stop

 

beleve me,
you don't want to forget all about her, but you can, everyone can

you are just torturing yourself,
just go out and live, you will get over her when you decide to

 

You miss the perception that you had of her, and not actually her.

"meanwhile i've had drugs, sex, alcohol and even a gf thinking they would help me to forget but they havent." Um, that is because you have not gotten over things. Instead of blaming her for everything try to think about what your part in all of this is, for example right now you are so tied up in thoughts of her that you cannot function.
On some level that's working for you. Maybe it allows you to blame poor judgement on her, or not being able to commit.....and it is NO ONES job to make you forget.

You really need to move on because your life doesn't stop and wait for you while you wallow in misery, and based on your post you are wallowing in it.

 

oh man
you are obsessed....
if ya want to forget her you should take pains....
alcohol and drugs as well as dating without deep feelings will not help you in that.

 

thank you very much everyone who replied.

yes i think you may all be right, i have not gotten over things.
i realise that with time i feel better indeed. actually you know what i am ok! all i wish is to talk to her some time by time. before going out we were actually best friends just to let you know. so i think i dont mis my lover but do miss my friend.
but cant talk to her anymore...

i am a stong man but my heart is so fragile you cant even imagine.