I need to vent. This is a rant. But advice is definitely welcome! I was dating a guy (I will refer to him as A) for a year and eight months. We were really in love, I have a lot of good memories with him, and I still wonder if things could have or should have gone differently. Regardless, our relationship came to an end... it was a pretty mutual break up, though he is being sore about things that shouldn't matter anymore. Now, he and I have been broken up for a month now. And in that time, I have begun seeing another guy (I will refer to him as B). When I say 'seeing' him, I mean that we spend a lot of time together, have communicated interest in each other, affection, etc... but nothing is official, and sometimes it seems like we are nothing more than friends. B confuses me. I don't trust A, because he has lied. I never know what he is thinking, because he won't tell me or lies about it. B... I have no idea. He doesn't appear to be a liar, I think I actually trust him for the most part (which is hard for me to do). He just... doesn't vocalize his thoughts and feelings very well. Heh. Another problem with B, we both have people that we are not 'over'. I just got out of a relationship last month, and he got out of one a few months ago. He recently saw a picture of his ex with another guy, and got pretty flustered by it. Me... well, my ex had already told me that he was back in contact with his ex (I will refer to her as C - what suiting name for her starts with that letter? Ha! Anyway...). I have never liked C since I met her... which was year before I even knew my ex. So, to find out they dated was shitty. Well, apparently A is talking to C. Said he had interest in her again, but only for a friendship. MY ASS, right? I called him out on it, he got defensive... typical for A. Anyway, now there is a comment on his MySpace (damn that website to Hell) from C ending with 'I love you' and speaking of missed phone calls and such. I spoke briefly with A yesterday. He told me he wasn't seeing anyone. Then later said "If I wanted you to know if I was seeing someone, I would tell you." I asked him about that... "So only if you wanted me to know? So you are seeing someone, and you don't want to admit it?" Back to being defensive, then claiming again to not be seeing anyone. PEOPLE. Tell the truth! Hurt someone with the truth for the moment. Don't lie or drag it out. It only fucks with people. For years, guys have fucked with my head. This was just another harsh blow. Always be honest. No matter what. Now... where was I?... I was a bit flustered when I saw that comment. It pretty much passed quickly, and did not bother me as much as B was bother by the picture of his ex, but whatever. I really expected A to go after C again. I knew it was going to happen. I'm still a little shocked and hurt that I was right, but I was pretty prepared for it. Plus, I've come to terms with the end. What is meant to be, will be. This end has been coming for a while. We had troubles, and friends always told me I should break up with him. So now, I am just hoping that things go well (with time) with B. It would hurt to lose two guys I care for so much, in such a short amount of time. Though, it would be my own fault... I let myself get interested and somewhat attached to a new person a bit too quick for my situation... but you can't help who you like. Anyway, that's it. I feel better having typed all this out. Ha. If you have any advice on the situation... please, give it.
i think that you should just 4 get about guys for a while and just get happy and you will find your soulmate and you will know when you lay your eyes on him
