So.... When I was a youngin, not too long ago, I used to get sexual fantasies about being used by older pedo guys. I knew to some degree that this would be societal misconduct on their part, but would even try to barely-perceptibly flirt with "adults" from the time I was like...9 or 10...to try to screw with them... I was a child of sexual abuse, and if you want to know how much it messes up a kid for the rest of their life, you can just ask me or anyone else who went through it about it, so don't use this story as grounds to fuel your misguided thoughts that a kid wants it. They don't know what they want. They're a kid. Get professional help, really. Help yourself avoid making a terrible mistake. And yet, I still try to look, and achieve looking very young despite being of legal age (to the point that my mom thinks I need to protect myself from being "molested" instead of "raped", etc...) and occasionally lie to guys and tell them I'm underage cause it gives me some sort of sexual thrill, and I'd like to do some indecent father/son play with an older guy. Anyone ever experience similar thoughts/fantasies? Any reactions appreciated.