stuck in the memories i wish i never had of those times when i was too small and id run to my bedroom and cry and wish that i could be someone else rather than the person that i was and am today stuck remembering all the times i couldnt be in the house young but old enough to know the smell of alcohol and the way she walked the way she talked when she was drunk and ready to blame me for all her problems to abuse me because im here remembering when i couldnt breathe i couldnt speak i didnt know why i was in pain i am in pain wanting to escape but never could all i could do was remember and dream of a time when i was someone else but the dreams always faded back into the reality of her hand slamming me into another wall because i exist and its all my fault even though i dont know what i did and here come the memories once again
I'm not an authority on poetry. Though I do write poems myself. I like what you do, and your style. When I read yours, it sounds a little like my own to me -- when I'm depressed any way. I like how clear, real, and honest, the emotion is. I feel it -- you touch me -- I understand. You do excellent work/art/writing. You put it out there. You are talented, and I can see how you can make a name for yourself one day. Probably at many things. Also, keep doing what you are doing, don't mess with rhyms -- unless you are writing song lyrics -- which I bet you'd be dynmamite at. I'm sorry though, that your work/art is always so troubled and sad -- but I understand why. You make it oh so clear. And I'm glad you've found this way of getting some of the pain out. Why is it that troubled artists are usually the best? When I encounter situations like yours, I always wish that I had God-like powers, and could set it all right with a single thought. Too bad I can't. By the way, it's NOT your fault, and you're NOT a disappointment, though I can understand how somethings in life might lead you to that erronious impression. Keep writing, I think it will help save you.
You're welcome. Just telling the trueth. I notice that the your signature is gone. Hope to see one that treats you a little better soon. Hang in there!
