Last night went for a rave with few of my friends, was not prepared to go but my friends pep talked me into coming.. it was honestly different from the one's back in goa, More darker psychedelic music though. After a while my friends my friends bought some mdma. It was my first time but they were regular ravers.. Although i have done Acid a few months back and i knew what to expect. I'm not sure how much i got.. 1 big piece of crystals and rest small pieces like powder. Lick it from my palm and swallowed it.. it was awfully bitter. after about 45 mins i felt it.. I was dancing /raving for a bit.. I generally get very self conscious about my self when i dance.. once it started getting crowded i went to so sit for a while and started getting these heavy patterns of negative thoughts about me or what i feel that things that i should have done in my life instead of just neglecting.. I was kind of getting depressed and really wanted to leave but couldn't as this was an underground location and i had no clue where i was ) I just wanted to have a good time.. but ended up in a depressing night. When i did acid back in june it was honestly the best trip of my life.. MD was soemthing else
Getting a drink of water, going back out on the dance floor, finding some other people to chat with can help you out of negative thoughts. MDMA's cognitive aspect is often overlooked by many, you have expereince with it now and can learn from that. Make sure you are in a good mindset going into your next experience.
Was it particularly trippy or visual? You could have had MDA, maybe? Because MDMA is very introspective and all, but it's also very positive, it allows you to feel positive while examining negative ideas or things.
Sounds like a general case of "the fear". Maybe a synthetic cannabidol, something that mimics the effects of too much weed. I wonder if synthetic cannabidols have the potential to be changed by the liver into more potent forms like the real thing.
Whats MDA? I was with a positive mind but then went negative once i sat.. Okay anyway i'm feeling pretty much wired right now, Got back yesterday and 8 am, went to sleep from 9am to 5pm, went back to sleep at 9pm, woke up and 2, and slept at about 4:30 am and woke up by 2pm.. Went to class.. Was really wired- My class mates were like your on coke.. Feeling really disconnected from reality- What should i do
