I love rolling and each time has been extremley fun, but I took a psyc. class and we learned about how MDMA can reduce Serotonin in the brain which is a neurotransimitter that makes us happy, this decrease plays a huge factor in depression as well. The past few months I haven't been "depressed," but I havent been happy. I have just been median, with no emotion. Could this lack of emotion be linked to molly or am I just being dellusional about it? Opinions are welcome! PS: I don't do molly often, I've only done it about 6 times since last summer, and those were the only times I have done it...I'm scared to do it again though because of what I learned!
6 times in half a year really isn't enough for it to have had any noticable effects on your serotonin receptors. We're talking about months or years of extensive use, like several pills/large amounts of mdma at a time, weekly or more often even. I do a couple of pills/bit of mdma every couple of weeks, have done since the Summer, and I've not noticed any adverse effects. From your posts on the LSD forum it seems there may be other reasons for unhappiness always look to yourself before you look to blame a drug, or something else.
there most likely are underlaying issues, I guess I have always known that there is some sort of insecurty causing all of this...I've suffered from depression before, and I honestly dont feel depressed, but who knows, I've asked my parents to take me to a psychiatrist or psychologist for help (not meds but just some psycholgical feedback, maybe if i know the problem i can take better control?) and they've refused...I know there are other options, I just took it as a dead end and consequently haven't imporved much, but hey, life is beautiful so I'm taking it one day at a time, thanks for pointing that out, I guess its something I knew but didn't really want to think about so I beat around the bush asking all sorts of questions, that really had nothing to do with the root of the problem, thanks : )
Woah.... I took it about once a week for a month or so. Ended up with panic attacks and claustrophobia. Much better now, years later, but still a mite claustrophobic. I have a dear friend who took it ONCE and it took her 3 years to get over the anxiety.... The stuff ain't no good... It was given to me as SAFE by a trusted friend/sister. Things like that effect different people differently 'cause we all have slightly different brain chemestry. Thing is, I knew there was something wrong with it the first time I tried it 'cause when I started to come down my first real urgent thought was "wish I had more"..... That's what gets so many folks in trouble...
yeah, thats exactly how i felt, the 3 other people i was doing it with actually attempted to lick the table to get any residue left off...yeah, I have been so dull these past few months, i havent cried or TRUTHFULLY smiled for months, BUT I CRIED TONIGHT! It was amazing...hah for most thats nothing, but i seriously have been watning to do it for months, and i did...maybe thats strange, but whatever, it was really releasing..
I would never wanna do E more than once a month(usually much longer, not used in almost a year) no matter how good the pills are.
Ah... if only E were non-addictive and didn't cause depression or any of that shit. E is the one drug I would love to try but know I shouldn't because of the fear of loving it TOO much and going into that depression/addiction.
It's not physically adidctive at all, and psychologically, well that depends on your personality I guess. After I roll I never even get the urge to want to do it again for at least a month.
I wonder if in your psych class any mention was made of the extremely successful use of MDMA to treat things like post traumatic stress back in the days before goverments banned research? I doubt it, because the curiculum is devised not just to give you unbiased information, but to shape your attitudes too. And in the case of ecstacy, the demonization campaign is on-going. Too much, too often can lead to depression. Moderate use seems relatively safe. It may even have benefits. I know moderate users who have been doing it for a number of years with no ill effect. I also know others who have done too much and have had problems - but not as bad as the problems I've seen in relation to other substances, including alcohol. http://www.maps.org/mdma/#healing Check this out - you may get more of an unbiased view.
There's nothing in MDMA that the body can't cope without, hence a physical addiction. If you ever get a psychological dependancy i.e. feel as if you need pills to be happy, then you are just too pussified to deal with the fact that E is a Temporary Autonomous Zone, not a Permanent one.
