Married bi guys do you wish you would have not found you like cock

Having always known my proclivity for the gardens of Adam, I had to sit and dwell on this. If I'd never had an experience to reveal this side of me, would I have gone through life happily hetero? Or would there have been a nagging pull from my id indicating something was missing? I suspect the latter.

We are who we are and our minds, and bodies have a way of telling us there is a hunger needing to be sated, even if we don't know what that hunger is. The mind and body does tend to communicate it's wants, desires and needs quite clearly. It's our brain that gets in the way, for whatever reason.

The want, need, desire could be anything, It could be a thirst for knowledge, a need for adventure, or in this case a desire for emotional, physical, or intimate contact from another who shares our same form. Some part of us knows the what, if not the why. I mean why do some of us prefer big tits to small, or large bodies to thin? Bottom to top? I suspect these things are hard-wired into us. So it stands to reason, that having never had a cock would not hide from us (or at least me) a deep seated desire to at least try one, if our wiring so inclines us that way.

In the end I'm more afraid of the regret of suspecting while never pursuing.

 

I do regret hiding it from my first wife. For 15 years (off & on at times) of our 25 year marriage she wasn't satisfying my sexual desires. However, I don't regret having experienced what had been on my mind for many years, even before I met her which was sucking cock. Those urges started when I was around 17 and would come and go at times until I was around the age of 29-30 when I first acted on those urges. The timing and environment was never safe enough as I didn't want it getting out that I sucked another guys dick as my wife would leave me and out me to hundreds of people I'm sure. So, I kept my urge's for cock hidden as I was hooking up with other married men for mutual oral encounters. I quickly became addicted to sucking cock and my skills improved with each blow job and then I took my first load in my mouth and discovered yet another desire I was wanting to experience. I love taking a mans load in my mouth, savoring it, tasting it, then swallowing it for him. Many times I had mutual oral sex with a guy to go home and have great sex with my wife. I couldn't have a relationship with a guy like I had with my wife...it was just sex with men and I was full-filling a sexual desire that my wife was unable to full-fill because she didn't have a cock. I've been remarried now for 7 years and she knows and accepts that I'm bisexual as we have a relationship with another bisexual couple and there is no need for me to hide any desires now because my wife is involved most times.

 

I enjoy my bisexual side. It’s more fantasy than reality so far. I’ve sucked a guy once and had a lot of fun over the years thinking about. There’s nothing quite like spending a few hours talking to a guy/reading stories and porn to get a really good orgasm...BUT yeah I mostly wish I was a completely regular hetero guy that had a good sex life at home a couple times a week.

 

I think the reason my wife and I bonded the way we did is that she was the first woman I opened up to about my interest in cock. The downside is that she isn’t into that, but she loves and accepts me the way I am. I have also admitted to her that it turns me on to think about her and I sharing guys together...and also would turn me in if she fucked a dude and told me about it while I was out of town. I love to see her happy, and would give her all the cock in the world to make her happy....I wish she were cool with giving me the same.

 

Have you talked to her about it?

 

Oh she knows. She is the reason I am as gay as I am. I was always disgusted with myself on the rare occasion I thought about men while masturbating. She told me one night she fantasized about women. That was a serious fuck session that night. Took me 6 months to tell her my fantasies. Another crazy session. My disgust went away and I started to enjoy my gay fantasies more. Wife really encouraged me and loved me thinking about men. Encouraged me to meet men for sex. She loves how gay I am and knows the only reason I get my cock hard enough to fuck her (ass only), is if I am thinking about a man.

 

has she been with a another woman yet?

 

Unfortunately, no. She is shy and would be too embarrassed to tell anyone else she likes women.

 

Same here. Have a decent sex life, but I still enjoy fantasizing and chatting with men. I’ve had a bit of experience with guys, I still consider myself to be 100% hetero (though I have no hang ups about being otherwise), but I do wish I would have explored this side of me more before I got married.

 

My wife

My wife has seen me do it. She enjoyed it at the time, but it caused some issues afterwards. Her main concern was that it meant I was gay. Hard to convince her that I definitely am not. So I’m not sure if bringing it up again is worth the risk of creating unnecessary tension. But it would be great if she was into it.

 

If he doesn't cum in your mouth, what's the point?

 

It was exciting. He ended up cumming on my wife’s big tits.

 

I did.

 

Other than the issue I mentioned earlier (about her concerns of me being gay) not at all. It only bothers me now, because I want to relive that moment lol.

 

It's been decades since I've had my suck buddy's cock in my mouth. The memories haunt me now......the hardness, texture, swelling, exploding, swallowing. Those few years with him were something else. Wife is sexless for 3 years now. If a had a choice now between a beautiful woman or handsome man to have sex with, I'd probably take the man. I'm so over women for the time being.

 

I was hoping my wife would be into that. I’d be into doing it with her...but she doesn’t enjoy the thought.

 

Well, to her, she’s just not into it. She’s shared toys with me, and engages me in fantasies. We write letters back and forth when I am out of town where she mentions allowing me to suck....but she fears it’s more than it is. I just think it’s hot...but I’m not really attracted to guys. She wouldn’t even listen to a real encounter I tried to tell her about once. I dunno. She makes it sound like she’d let me do it as long as she didn’t have to watch. Doesn’t want to see me fuck another chick either though. I’d rather be a bottom in a three way with her... lol

 

no regrets here i enjoy it too much to stop

 

My wife is the one who talked me into doing it. She felt bad for me , not getting it anymore, but not bad enough to let me get a gf. She had absolutely no problem with me getting a bj from our gay friend , but not a woman. She pushed the bi thing because it turned her on to watch us. I felt skittish about sucking his cock the first time,as she watched. Her excitement made it all good. If your wives knew , they might like it too. Did you ever have the topic come up?

 

I’ve done it in front of my wife, then girlfriend. I think she liked it, but it was sort of a one time thing. Would love to again in the future and would love to with a woman as well, though like you, I think that’s off the table as my wife is very, and unfortunately, completely straight.