Looking back...

Do you ever look back on a part of your life and ask yourself, "What the hell was I thinking?"

Of course, I think we all have those times, but when was the last time you did it...were you thinking about a past relationship? Was it a chance you missed? Was it good intentions gone wrong?

 

the last major time
chance I missed

minor thing
getting mcdonalds last night

 

I don't regret my past much at all. If I didn't have my past I wouldn't have my present.

 

^ agreedd

my "major one" I listed is the only thing that survived my 'no regrets' philosophy's incarnation

 

Pretty much the past 5 years of my life. that realization hit me pretty recently actually. the fact that ive invested far too much in a relationship. Thats the problem when you use someone or something as a crutch. when it goes away, you fall. i must have been brainwashed all these years.

 

just stupid mistakes that i should have thought through more, or just didnt know any better,. but i learn from them. and move forward

 

i regret lots of things but i dont dwell so i dont really care.

but most recent, i saw my ex and thought, what the hell was i thinking?

 

My ex

 

I nearly ruined an amazing relationship because I was too busy dwelling in the past and couldn't let go of something (or someone) that I never actually had, not for real anyway. Luckily I snapped out of it in time..

 

the last time i thought that way WAS about my relations a month ago
it was about missed opportunities out of my stupidity

yes we all tend to look back and regret
but we shouldnt practice this that much
look ahead
dont regret

 

About continuing my college education in this program and place when I knew I hated it all along

 

i always know what i'm thinking, i just don't often get a chance to do anything useful about it.

and the thing is with looking back, while you're bussy second guessing yourself; "watch out for that ... treeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"

=^^=
.../\...

 

Thinking all the time,,,I don`t regret much,,,Don`t always like myself, can be quite a "reactionary" person,,,"feel too much" sometimes. Wish I knew a little better which way was the right way. I have to sit and listen to those around me spirit-wise. Listen to God, His Son-Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. My rebelious side gets to me the best. God knows this and boy, he tells me . I know alot of you think this chick is "NUTS" well I already know I am,,,smilin` so it is o.k. But I also know where the world can end and begin. Today,,,waiting on my very good friends--I thank the Lord for all around me. Even when the world can be "UGLY" it is still a beautiful world cause we are all here,,,to care about one another. ,,,Here for all who need...try to have a beautiful day. Even if you have to "Fake it sometimes" God bless you all.

 

i try not to even look back at yesterday. every day seems to have a "what the fuck was i thinking " moment. i can't call one swath of life more painfully embarassing than any other. i'm good at humiliating myself and making bad bad decisions.

 

Learning is what it is all about,,,I know that is easier said than done. Like I said, if anyone gets hit over the head,,,do not feel alone dear one, need an ear to listen or a shoulder of one that will not judge, a time to B.S. we are here for you. and anyone else.

 

i look back to my sophomore year and wonder what the fuck was i thinking wasting everything on drinking and how i fucked up...now its taking much longer to even get close to graduating.

so yea, what the fuck was i thinking?

 

No.
I always make good choices.
And I dont regret anything.

 

you haven't REALLY even started to make decisions.

 

Yeah.
U know everything about me.

 

you're 18. you haven't even had the TIME to get into the good and gritty ones. you're still livingin with your parents, right? they're paying for school? oh yeah, you haven't even gotten to the truly life-fucking up ones.