I study a lot in university. I overdo myself in hopes of becoming successful, but I'm really lonely. I study alone, as it is most effective for me. Sometimes I don't care but sometimes I wish I was normal like other people. Unfortunately, studying so much affects me negatively, as I become an uninteresting person and I do not have the energy to spend time with others. I know I'm doing something wrong since I'm young and I should be enjoying my life, but I can't figure out what else is there for me. I am now learning a new language, apart from my studies, partly hoping to socialize with the people in my class. Over the years I have spent much energy helping people with their studies. I feel that in the end, people do not appreciate my help. People try to exploit you when you are good. I have very recently decided to never help anybody again in the future. However, this distances me even more from others, as I generally do not trust people anymore and do not believe in them. Well, thanks for reading. I'll appreciate any advice and I will answer any questions...
I can relate to this. You have to learn what kinds of people are worth your time and energy. You have to be extremely cognizant of your own energy levels and emotional well, and you own wants, needs and expectations. There's nothing wrong with wanting to benefit when you help people. Being selfless is the opposite of selfishness...that's obvious, but what I mean by that is that you neglect yourself by being selfless. When you engage with someone, invest in someone, and help someone, you deserve to be appreciated for that giving. You have to learn who is not worthy of your help.
