Well lets see it all started about sophmore year. (im a senior BTW) I got A excellent job at a hardware store and i was making hardcore money for being a sophmore..(400+USD every 2 weeks) while in school. So this is where everything started. I began smoking marijuana daily up to 10-15 times. i was a little over weight at the time, and still kept smoking daily till the middle of jr i started to fuck with any type of speed. Concerta, adderall, focalin, coke, vyvanse ETC. anything to give me that great speedy not hungry feeling. after about 3 months i was dealing with storting 3-4 focalin 30xr pills twice daily, or just take anything to give me that high. aftger losing 30 pounds from going from 5'6 183 pounds to 6'0 151 pounds in a matter of 2-3 months. i was feeling constantly weak sick and yea wasnt to fun. ( i still smoked ALOT of weed at this time too..) but which leads me to know. Im 17 years old a SR in highschool, and i just dont know. I feel like i need marijuana just to get threw the day. if im not high or anything i just feel so bored and just uncomfortable.. marijuana has caused me to fail 4 classes jr year and everything seems to just be going down hill. Please help, i just wanna know how i can enjoy life, i cant remeber what its like to be happy sober.. please help...
why do you blame marijuana for failing 4 classes? it's just a plant. you have to decide what's most important and act on it. if you want to enjoy life sober then find something you like and get into it. you don't need to reveal it here but what were your plans after high school? can you pick up where you left off before your life took this detour?
you got one hell of a drug abuse and addiction problem going down with you! zenloki is quite correct... don't blame the drugs because, you dropped in recognizing you were abusing and becoming addicted to drugs. i tried heroin when i was 19. OH, MAN... I NEVER FELT SO MOTHERFUCKING GOOD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! i have never touch the stuff since then and, i never well again either! i just knew i would become addicted and abuse it until i let it kill me. you need to find and work with a psychologist who has training in working drug abuse and addiction RIGHT NOW! if you live in denial about your drug abuse and addiction you, well keep going down hill until, you hit bottom legal system will force you into a treatment center and, MAN YOU DON'T WANT TO BE PLACED IN ONE OF THOSE SHITHOLES!
