I just found a text document on my computer from when I first tried LSD. "Could the thought of making this real actually cloud the judgment required for the decision for its initial creation.. in reference to writing down current thoughts and feelings that is. 5:16, I'd say pretty much five hours in to the "twelve" hour ordeal. Acid is that of predisposed thoughts; what to expect; how to feel; what to even think of. Paradoxes form too readily in the mind; Does one take lsd to simply have hallucinations or is it to achieve an inner goal, you must delve into ones psyche yet 'trip' visually at the same time. Maybe that's a bad trip, not being able to do both at the same time, but I can’t. When you are then thinking about it you realize -- what defines a trip? Only what you previously know. Therefore a bad trip is the lack of knowledge on what is happening. But, if you can't describe it, then how did previous people predispose onto you what a trip was; thinking or visually flippancy? - you must think of lsd and what it is doing to you while analysing it from the outside world. What is it doing? Any assumptions on what you are experiencing seem to try and piece themselves together as the only rational thought you may have. Do I not notice the visual partition of lysergic acid diethylamide because cognition is too occupied with ego? 5:32 Expressing my feelings just aren’t quite enough. That's what sets you apart from -- you have small self revelations that seem to then take over your thoughts, interrupting every few seconds. Must review - Facts created within the state are unreliable but that is also in itself a paradox. If I know that it is simply a drug, and you know your thoughts are unreliable, you induce the 'am I crazy/will this ever end' game." It seems I only documented a random half our of my trip.
