I have been looking for guys similar to myself for a long time. I have seen a few people here that seem to be close...I am only orally-bi and have been so since about 14. I was essentially trained by an older cousin (no blood relation) to service him on the regular. I don't think that it was right and would never advocate for anyone to be taken advantage of at anywhere near that age; but I am not upset that it happened. Simple fact is that I enjoyed pleasing him. I have accepted his apology and our kids and family see each other on occasion. I have been married for nearly half of my life and have no desire to change it. My wife is aware of my past and we have explored a great deal together; mostly without judgement. Prejudices being as they are, my wife is essentially the only person that is aware of this. My few "friends" have always been outside of my normal crowd. I have found that I am only attracted to other married and straight-living guys. I don't like gay porn. I have no desire for anal or even much intimacy...but I have a major oral fetish. I am comfortable with it and am beginning to open up more to a few close friends. The line between gay/bi seems to mean little except to those few people I know that are gay...they seem to be very opinionated on the subject. Up until a few months ago, I have been seeing the same married man discreetly for nearly three years. We played hockey together years ago and remained distant friends. It was simply awesome and we saw each other nearly every week if not more. His wife found out and it has ended; fortunately with little drama on my end. I have been looking for the same thing or similar, but I don't even know where to begin...
I guess my saying that I don't know where to begin is not entirely correct. Did the CL thing...trolls, bs, and the like. Tried a few sites, but difficult to find someone looking for a similar thing. I know there are guys out there looking for the same, but all guys on sites seem to be; not to offend gay guys, but all out gay. I'm just not attracted to it. I want a regular DL thing with a preferably married guy...maybe just too picky?
