Journal #61, July 8: What I'm looking to experience as a submissive (NSFW)

Honestly I'm not looking too much into physical abuse. Enough to show me who's boss I guess. I'm more into the psychological abuse.

I imagine it would begin with CMNM. That would highlight the superiority of my Master, hopefully making me self conscious, embarrassed and humiliated. The eyes of a clothed man looking all over my naked body.

Something about humiliation really appeals to me. We all work so hard for respect. It can get stressful. So to be in an environment where not only you're not pressured to work for that goal but also are challenged to break down that progress can be strangely relieving, I'm guessing.

I also look forward to giving my control to another man. What will he make me do? Where will he take me? What will he make me admit? Will it scare me? Will it make me grow? Will it make me cum? I can't wait to submit and go on that adventure!