Journal #40, October 6 (NSFW)

I want to seduce an older man. (I'm in my early 50s.) I want that kind of power. Maybe even a man who has never been with or even considered being with another man. Wouldn't that be hot - me being the reason a guy would consider trying guys for the first time! I would enjoy seeing him nervous around me. I would subtlely tease him about it. I would also subtlely let him know I'm into guys and into him, and hint I'm inexperienced with the same sex. Most guys love virgins, and love the idea of deflowering someone. The sexual tension between him and me would be exquisite. So would seeing the bulge in his pants. Knowing I'm giving him an erection would be so gratifying for me.

I don't know how the tension would eventually break. Maybe one of us would invite the other to do something socially together, careful not to consider it a date of course. Maybe the older man would declare "we need to talk." Maybe he would just boldly grab me and put his tongue in my mouth. But it would come to the inevitable point he and I are alone, and he tells me he finds me attractive and desires me. In turn I tell him I've been hoping he and I could be alone and I feel the same way he does! I would also make it clear I have never been with a man, just to make him hotter for me for being my first man! This could only follow with a passionate kiss, and our clothes coming off, mine first. But then I would want to see his erection with my own eyes, to see his arousal by me. I would let him make love to me all night. My usual shame and embarrassment would be replaced with relief, comfort, satisfaction and affection. It would bring us closer to each other, and we would bond. It would be a positive and an incredible sexual experience for both of us. It would be the start of a hot sexual friendship.

And hopefully he would introduce me to a lot of his friends! I'd love to have my lover be in the room, and look into his eyes as his friend (or more than one!) is making love to me. It would probably make him want me more, and that lovemaking would be intense, on top of the other lovemaking being really fun!