Journal #21, December 11

It's been awhile since I've written one of these. The spirit hasn't really inspired me enough to write anything lately until now.
That said, right now I'm acutely aware a part of me eagerly wants to be promiscuous with members of the same sex! Maybe I'm so aware because I'm horny. Anyway, it's a good time to write about it while I have it so prominently on my mind.
I want to be able to sleep with guys at the drop of a hat. Maybe I'm a booty call for several guys. Maybe sex is a natural and beautiful component that has evolved with several male friends. Maybe I have the right charisma that makes strangers erect and makes them take me home. I want to be fucked several times a week. I want to invite more than one guy at a time. I want gangbangs not to be a rare thing. I want to have a reputation as a total slut that everyone loves fucking.
Of course reality is another thing. I'm totally single so I'm free to let any guy who desires me bend me over, but I have a day job and other obligations so daily bedhopping is not likely for me. STDs are a thing so I'd have a lot of self educating about safe sex to do. I'd get the monkey pox vaccine and go on PrEP at least. I'd also have to get wise about choosing whom I hook up with. You never know what kind of negligence or abuse you're walking into.
Yet there are guys who are living this life, so I know it must be able to be done! What do they have in common? What can they teach me? What kind of perspective can they offer? And do I have a realistic chance of living a happy, fulfilling homosexual lifestyle?
I'd love to hear from anyone who has thoughts, opinions, advice, criticisms, etc.

 

Thanks for taking the time to offer your advice. It is very practical. I have a vague understanding of what I desire, but it makes sense there might be at least things here and there I might like and not like and not realize it. So experience is key, yes.
My fantasies aside, I know I want to be safe and reasonable, and don't want to commit myself to anything. I'd like to be available to a broad selection of opportunities.
The challenge with me is I'm not a very social person and making connections is very difficult. Dating and social apps have not worked well for me.