Journal #12, August 28: I want a twink boyfriend so bad! (NSFW)

Wow! Has it been about a month since I've made a journal entry? I've been kind of without sexual appetite lately, I guess, so I haven't been driven to express myself with words. But an energy has been building in the past few days, and since it's now the weekend, I feel free to indulge in pleasant thoughts.
I'll start by saying I'm experiencing the homosexual side of my bi-cycle right now. All kinds of same sex scenarios are putting a smile on my queer face. But the one that stands out is the desire to be dating a twink!
Maybe it's a desire to experience vicariously same sex exploration at a younger age, something that, looking back, I really, really wish I was open to as a young adult. Maybe it's because I'm in some ways still young at heart, and I can relate to younger folks better. It's probably not too important to consider the reasons for my desires, as long as my intention is to make the world a better place. And it definitely is.
Anyway, I really desire a close relationship with a twink: someone slim, youthful looking. But also someone intelligent with a thirst for knowledge. Someone with a good, healthy sense of humor, because life is too short to take certain things at face value. And of course someone with a good heart.
I would love the opportunity to be introduced to and get to know the right young man: what makes him tick, what makes his heart race, what he likes to eat (we're talking strictly food here, as eating food is one thing I enjoy). I would enjoy meeting up with him, taking the time to learn about each other, without any urgency to run to bed. Maybe it would be my young candidate's first foray into male to male closeness. For the right guy, believe me, I would be patient and do my best to foster a comfortable, trustful environment. Going back to my previous thought about living vicariously, I know there would be a significant part of me at age 18 that would be hesitant to admit certain realities necessary to proceed with this happy goal (though there would also be a significant part of me that would be chomping at the bit lol).
I'm not sure what I would want to do on a date with a twink. I imagine the rules wouldn't differ from any other kind of date. It should be something that's a conducive opportunity to get to know each other and feel comfortable with each other. I'm pretty open to things.
But when the time comes, and we will both know it very well, when we lock the door and pull down the shades, that's when the fire will be lit. That first time will probably be nerve wracking. There will probably be a lot of giggling. The undressing will be awkward.
But once we present our vulnerable nudity to each other, the frustration will slowly cede to lust. I will behold my friend's beautiful, sinewy body, and my erection will betray my pleasure. Hopefully he will show similar signs of pleasure at my visage. We will approach each other cautiously but with determination. Before we realize what's happening, our hands are on each other's buttocks, our chests against each other, feeling excited breaths and pounding heartbeats. Our lips meet and begin our opening to each other, with tongues playing happily.
It would be a wild night of passionate lovemaking! Yes, lovemaking. It would go well beyond getting off and feeling good, though of course that would definitely be a part of it. But it would be something deeper, a meeting and intertwining of two souls, a process of becoming closer with each other. The sex would be more the means than the end. The cuddling with each other after being thoroughly exhausted would be a sign the orgasm was not the end. Big smiles from finally partaking of something that was painstakingly anticipated would lull us to a restful sleep. Maybe the next morning would start as a shock: has it happened already? But slowly we'd realize we're still there together, and now take advantage of the closeness he and I established the sultry night before. I think a lot of kissing would come next.
I wrote this to get my thoughts out of my head, kind of to blow off steam sexually. But I also kind of mean it as a personal ad. If you're this kind of guy and I have intrigued you, I warmly invite you to contact me especially if you're in the western New York area. I also warmly welcome input from anyone else. Let's make the world a better place.