I've been sexrually mellousted by my step dad since i was 12

Well I can't keep this in any longer.. I'm 16, turning 17 July 29th! and Well.. I've been touched and just about everything by my step father. It first started when i was 12.. I had gotton sun burn really bad on chest and i needed aloe to put on it.. He kept assisting that he would put it on for me..and i didnt relize nething about this.. i would have never expect my own step dad to do this to me when ive known him since i was 4! But he kept touching my chest and layed me on the ground and sat on top of me and was rubbing and grabbing my chest... i kept telling him to get off me that i was fine...but he wouldnt said that he needs to apply more... n this went on for years.. hed always grab my rear when id walk by or make these nasty comments about me,saying i look like JLO and all these things that really grossed me out. Well when i was 14 or 15.. which i think i was 14... i thought about this longgg and hard..right now we do have a good 3 story house that my sister loves, pool and i have the car ive always wanted..and its mainly because of my step dad.. N i know mom isnt goin to stay with him after me and my sis leave..shes done told me that.. but at the time i didnt know this.. but i was so scared to tell my mom cause i know it would have broke her heart!! and i told like 2 people..makin them swear to never tell a soul..but deep down, i wanted them to tell sumone and help me!! it made me feel sick and discusing! But that one day.. it was stormy and my step dad..got really pissed at me cause i was screaming for him to stop touching me.. and i ran up stairs and called mom..Sayin wat would happen to my friend if she told ppl..n of course mom knew i was talking about myself.. i told her sum of the things..n BEGGED her not to come in the house n talk to him.. i just knew he would weezle his way out of it..n of course mom had to come in n scream and yell about it.. n my step dad cried and cried saying he never did those thigns..or saying it wasnt even like that n shit... and it broke my heart.. i just wanted to get out..but mom just wouldnt listin..so i just told her i lied..i just got really upset with him...it broke my heart to tell my mom that.. but i was hoping she could see thro my eyes, i wasnt lieing, i was telling the god honest truth... but i had to say i lied...cause i know we would have lost everything and i just couldnt do that to my family... It stopped for like 3 weeks!!!! n later on..hed come in my room late at night...even when my door was locked!!! n hed lay beside me..rubbing my back and my rear and legs and all this nasty ass shit..sry im cussing but just goin of the events..its really making me sick..but i need to get this out... i want to get out of this situation sooo bad but i cant...not till i get out of High school and my sister! but hed always come in my room at night..and lay beside me and kiss on my neck and face..n i would cry and i know he saw me..but he just kept doing it...i cried soo many times after he left.. and hed try to kiss my lips and he stuck his tongue in my mouth..n i wish i would have bit the shitttttt out of it.. but i pulled away.. i tell him all the time to leave me alone... and then one day... he came in my room an di was watching tv..and he layed beside me n i told him to go away..n this man is strong and he kept rubbing my butt and stuff..i kept pulling away..then he did the unthink able... he fingered me.... that was one of my worst experiences ever!!! i really do think im the way i am now bc of him...this man has messed me up! i dont trust men at all.. everytime im around my friends dads or just grown men..i think they are checking me out and all this!! it makes me sick all the time..but back to that day.. then he looked at me and started to cry and was like i swear ill never do that again...and i promise to god i wont touch you ever again..n i believed him and i wasnt goin to tell mom again... cause that was just the limite!!!! not even the next day..he HAD to come and rub me and kiss me....this man is soo discusting.. i never ever owuld have thought this would be me!! n one night when iwas on the computer..he wispered in my ear "when can i make love to you?" i yelled never!!!!!!! my god..why is this man like this???? everyday he does this to me!! theres not ONE day he doesnt..except when he goes to the "beach" for work..which i do think hes cheating on my mom..n i think she knwos it too!!!! but i pray all the time to god..why am i n this life!!?? y do i have to put up with this?? is it bc god knows im strong enough to handle this and not do nething about it and keep it all insdie...yet cry myself to sleep at night cause this man makes me feel like pure dirt!!

i wanna become a cop...the main reason..is so i can get guys like him!!! i never ever want this to happen to any one!! and im only 16!!!

I just pray to god that god helps me make this thro... i just believe if mom wouldnt have talked to him...i wouldnt still be going thro all this pain..but i cant hurt my family right now... ive lost my dad..i havent seen him in over 13 yrs and hes in ky..we recently contacted him..n he doesnt want nething to do with me...

N i have strong morals.. i dont have sex..i believe tha is for marriage, i dont drink, smoke, party or nething!!! im not a bad kidd..but my step dad makes me feel like i am...yet he gets me out of trouble with mom..he gets me just about nething i want... n i do believe its cause he doesnt want me to tell mom whats goin on..

n recently hes starti nto ask me to give him a blow job, hand job, n if he can eat me out!!!!!!!!! my god..... i tell him no all the time...to leav eme alone and just be gone!! but this man keeps pushing his hands on me and just doesnt let up.... i need help, i want help, but i just cant go thro with it...



** this isnt half the stories!!!!!!!! its been goin on for5 yrs in prob wont still till i grad..which would be me almost 19!!i jsut i wasnt in this body or family! how could my mom not see this in this man..how could she not see the hurt in my eyes!!!

<3 Kayla

 

..n i bet you wouldnt even know.. i was a cheerleader for my high school.. we won STATES this yr.. im in the "popular" crowed, yet i get along with just about anyone! i have tons of friends.. but i cant keep a relationship...i really do think its bc of him!!

but really.. u never know whos going thro this!! so be nice to everone.. cause only 2 of my friends know about this..but you woudlnt even be able to know wat was goin on if you looked at me...

 

hey, that is one of the most horrible things i've ever heard.
i almost didn't post this because i believe i lack the words to decribe or comprehend what you are going through, but i'd like to help. if there is anything in my power i can do to help you, i'm here. if you need someone to talk to or a place to stay or anything, i'm here.
i sent you a friend request on myspace.

don't think i'm weird, i just think that your story is very sad and i'd like to help you.

 

look girl, why don't you get proactive about it.... get some hard evidence.

ok before i go on, i'm a malicious, vengeful, and ruthless person. when people cross me, the repercussions are lasting and scarring.

you need to begin a hidden video journal, what ever type of equipment you can get your hands on... also carry a voice recorder... you need to create true belief among people when its time... plus you have two potential accomplices.

gather and collect... as long as possible. Then as you said once you graduate and your family is ready you pull your trump card and black-mail the shit out of him. If he doesn't do what you want... sue the piss out of him.....with evidence like this a lawyer will either help you out pro-bono or on a constituance.

either way... you sound very upset and disturbed. physical and mental anguish. 5 years you say... through adolescence you say... emotional scarring and stockholm dependance from fear...
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not to say the money will cure all of these things.... but to put the bastard into a state of financial turmoil with a fun ride to the incarceration station... while being in your benefit might help to ease it...

plus you can always think... what do you think happens to child molestors in prison???????
we'll see how he likes some strong man lying up all close to him playing grabby ass, and finger games.

 

It is very disturbing to read what you have been and are still going through. I think you have 2 options. You can let things carry on for the sake of gathering evidence, or do nothing with the risk that each time he tries it on he'll want to take it a step further. Where would you then draw the line? When he tries to fuck you?
The fact remains that he is breaking the law (at least here in the UK he would be, not sure about US), and he is abusing not only your body but also he has and will take the remains of your childhood away.
What gives him the right to treat you like his own personal sex toy? In his mind you are just a young female who must be treated in a demeaning way. You are there to be controlled by him, and sex is his way of exerting that control.
Gather as much evidence as you can in as short a time as possible. Even things like sheets with his stains on, try to get a memo recorder to get his voice on tape whilst he's trying it on, and anything else that would at least convince your mum that you're telling the truth. Then go to the law and report him for child molesting and rape.
This man does not deserve to be free, he needs to be locked up for the rest of his natural life with a big bloke who will call him his bitch and the key thrown away.
Nobody has the godgiven right to do what he's doing! Be strong and if you need to talk just pm me. Take care!

 

right right.........we're here.

 

He doesn't view you as a human but instead he views you as a sex toy. Don't let him get you pregnant. Find out where the nearest place to get the morning after pill is incase he rapes you, and if he does, or when he does, you'll be able to go there. If he rapes you, don't take a shower or anything, just go with the police to have them gather evidence agianst him. They take you to some place where they collect evidence that you can use if you decide to bring charges agianst him.

For right now, get a tape recorder and hide it somewhere for when he comes. If you can get cameras or better hidden cameras or anything that you could use as evidence. Get as much stuff as possible, and keep it somewhere where he wont find it (probably not in your house).

I recommend you take kung fu or jujitsu. The more of that stuff you know the better. Actually, you would probably do better to learn jujitsu because they teach you joint locking and wrestling.

Sorry if I always look at worst case senarios but thats just the way I am, and I really think this guy is going to try to rape you if he hasn't already.

You need to get as much evidence in as little amount of time as possible. Eventully, you're going to have to confront him with this stuff (with the police in court) and you're either going to send him to jail and keep the house or your family will lose it all to him. Its worth a shot.

 

The bloke above is right in some ways .... but wrong in others. Keep a very low profile, learn self defence techniques, and look for a job to enable you to get out of the situation. You will build character out of the situation, and that is all that will help you. All we can do is advise and offer our support.

 

horrible......i'm sorry, but you have to do something...

 

Hmm what do you think about confronting the molester, tell him that you know what he is doing and it needs to stop. Oh yeah and learn some self defense moves every young girl should know a few. Speaking of J-lo, she made a movie where her husband beat her and stuff but the outcome was in her favor, take it easy alright.

 

OH yeah and I am sure they have agencies for this type of stuff, they will be able to do alot of stuff for you.

 

Hey, well i do have a lil sister and i KNOW hes not doing anything to her... she tells mom EVERYTHING!!! everything she sees, does, hears ...wat ever.. she tells..and he knows this! and i know he cant or hasnt done nething to her bc i used to cheer and for 2 yrs i wouldnt be comin home til like 7:30 and shed come home right after school..and my step dad makes a lot of pit stops at the house...but i didnt think nething was goin on with him and her.. until now.. since i quite bc i just couldnt do it nemore...my feelings were startin to come out at practice n id always start crying out of the blue.. cause my step dad JUST done sumthing before practice or i knew wat was going to happen when i got home... So yea.. i quite the ONE thing that made my life happy...

Thanks for yalls comments, n i do think imma get them camras n recorders...i used to keep a journal of everything hed to do me day after day... but mom kept snooping around my room thinking i had bad things or watever.. so i had to throw it away.. really wished i didnt cause that had EVERYTHING in it...

 

Please,Go to the police AT ONCE!!! Don't wait another second! Put this monster behind bars where he belongs so he can get a taste of his own medicine. Also get some self defense training and document everything.

 

tell somebody, that isnt cool. people like that should be shot. im sorry, hun.

 

that is rough. take down the bastard.

 

Well now.. ive writtin a letter to my mom today...but here is the other thing.. Since i dont have sex...i think i might be pregnant!!! idk yet tho..there is a chance that i might be.. If u dont have sex..your ur imagination on how else you can get pregnant!! and im scared to death!!!

But i think this is a good way to tell my mom about everything.. ive already writtin it down and everything... but i have to talk to my boyfriend n see if i can go live with him...since he wants me to anyways..but im still 16!!! bout to turn 17 in july! but i asked that she leave me alone and ill write to her and let her know that imma be fine... my friends that im staying with make good amount of money and if sumthing does happen, ill check myself into sumthing that can take care of me.. but im still goin to go to school and stuff.. just i cant face her again..not a second time around...n if i happen to not be pregnant then still..i dont wanna live here any longer! i feel like i have betrayed my mother and everything.. but im hopin to actually leave Friday!!! so it gives me and my boyfriend time to get my things and get ready! cause i really cant stay here..n the thought of me.. gettin pregnant.. omgah!! im scared to death! but this thing happend sunday night.. so i think its too early to tell if i am..but ive looked this up for hours n it says that i could be pregrant!! but my boyfriend is about 20 in june!! so all around..im SCREWED!! ughh i really hate my life!

Wat am i supost to do? i cant face my mother again, and if i am pregrant..omgah mom would kill me...ughh idk wat to do..im soo confused and scared to death and i just want to leave! but im scared for my mom and my sis! im afraid mom will come after me with the cops or wat eever..and make me come home and put my bf in jail!!!!!! n i cant let that happen..so idk wat to do!!! My life is just screwed up all around!!!!!

 

Get OFF the Internet, and call the G.D. Police!!!!!!!!!
That isn't right. Get HELP.

 

you need to tell your mom to her face if you dont send a tape. she will be able to tell by your face that you arent lying. and if its just a letter, then the cops have no evidence to lock him away. unless you are pregnant. thats evidence. but i hope thats not gonna happen. juist listen to the people before and try to tape him before you leave if he does anything. hope it all works out

 

yall just dont understand this!! if i tell... everything will be messed up! it will hurt my mom soooooooooo much and hurt my sister!!!!! idk if i can do that! im scared to death.. and idk.. i want to get out of this situation...fast, but i just dont know if i can tell my mom!!!!! it will break her heart, n she wont have a lot of money bc most of it came from my step dad... gahhh ihate this sooo much...



but answer me this.. if i go away with friends...like shes married shes 18 her husband is like 20...n my boyfriend is turning 20 in june...n if i live with my friend n her husband...can the police force me to leave?? would it get put on my record n hurt me in the long run for jobs????

 

it would hurt your mum more to know that she couldnt be there for you when you needed her. Tell her. this a time when you need her, there is no better person than a good mother to help you through this time. you mean far more to her than he does to her, i promise this. in this situation think with your head, and i promise you everyone on this thread is giving the best and most compassionate help they can