About an hour ago everything was cool and I was sending her an e-mail back telling her that if she wanted me to get over her then I was going to have to go a few weeks without calling her, etc. blah blah blah...and then she read the post I made on my xanga. Granted, I was pathetic for whining about my relationship problems in an online journal, but I didn't have MY journal with me since I'm at my dad's. So she read that post and it all went to hell...now apparently she hates every single fiber of my existence and wants to kill me in my sleep...because I made a post in my xanga...but I just feel like throwing up from all the fucking chaos that ensued. after I read it and called her and then read her xanga entry about how she was tired of ME toying with HER when she was the one who had been playing fucking mindgames from the start and everything just feels like it got crushed into a little ball, and thrown into the giant divine trash can that's just waiting to absorb everything. It jsut feels like I'm stuck in an airduct and I can't get out and everything is closing in around me and it just makes me sick. Well, I'm done now...
I am sorry. You can't feel bad though about something your feeling, like you said she is the one with the mindgames. Just stick to what you feel is best.
I can see why someone would get upset about their relationship being discussed online, where anyone could view it. I mean, if someone did that to me, I would feel terribly violated. I post nothing intimately personal about my and my dh's relationship, just out of respect for him. Maybe keep your relationships private. Delete the damn posting and talk to HER instead of strangers online. JMO.
my firend posted something about me on her live journal about our relationship and where it was going and it pissed me off cause she can talk to the whole world about it but she wont talk to me.
I treid talking to HER about it and all she does is bitch at me about me blaming all my problems on her(which I didn't do...)and I'm really thinking it's not that she wants to keep our relationship away from the interenet, because she hasn't failed to leave me comments on posts not even concerning her and telling me how pathetic I am. I relly just needed a couple of days to sit around and be depressed, but oh well...maybe it's for the better...
yo no offense. Fuck that bitch LOL !!! Come with me and we'll go pick up some pussy at a strip club LOL!!!
*hugz* love sucks. But it will get better, just try to keep cool, give her distance and let the whole thing blow over, trust me, it will in time. In the mean time, spend time with people you can talk to and just work on being chilled. xxx peace.
lmao TokeMeUp420, sounds good to me man. Well, she's let me know that she doesn't want me talking to her unless I have something extremely important to say, so I'm thinking I'll wait about a month and then give her a call...
Brother, you should try to overcome this by isolating your mind with positive thoughts and build more self-esteem (not that you don't have any, but after traumatic events...you know). Once you see yourself as an independent agent living for YOU and not tying yourself to certain situations which could make you miserable, you'll feel alot better about life and yourself too. Chin up, man. :sunglasse
Thanks man, that sounds like a good idea. Thanks everyone for the posts, I figured everyone who looked at this thread would just think "Oh he's just whining...there's no point in replying". So yeah...thanks.
