I'm experiecing alot of inner conflicts lately. In my life i try to value the hippie norms of peace and love, But since i did shrooms everything looks different, People look wicked, people looking at me with faces full of hate. As if this whole world got paranoid. Even my friends seem to be selfish and living in their own (limited) comprenhensions. Even people who i had thought to be wise in the past, now look like persons who only know wisdom in the form of words but not in thoughts. This all makes me sick and depressed. Is everyone like this? are humans so limited? Isn't there one person that really is just a normal thinking person, a person looking at reality, and not his own reality? I don't want to be the whiner, but alot of thoughts have been rushing my head, and it all makes me sad...and maybe insane.
I understand what you mean...wholeheartedly. It's so sad to see everyone like this, it depresses me deeply. It's so hard to see things for what they really are...sometimes I wish I was just stuck in the same false reality as everyone else so I could live in false happiness...but It's not my calling. It's also hard sticking out like a sore thumb in a blinded society...It drives me insane. The only sense of joy and truth I get is in nature, there is nothing fake about nature
It is good to know that i'm not that only one I have a feeling that the constant questioning is making me insane, what is the point of life? Will i ever find satisfaction in life? Will i find satisfaction in my job when i graduate? Or will my life be a endless hell, a endless maze with only one exit.. I have been thinking of becoming a writer, i enjoy writing poems, but i'm really afraid that i would loose myself in abstract thinking. I have been in moods of nostalgia lately.. i think that i just need to find peace, find peace with myself. Their is to much impurity in myself and other persons . I bet i sound like some madman..maybe that is what i'm becoming..
You don't sound crazy to me...or the others on the forum for that matter. If you like writing then go for it and become a writer! I bet your poems are amazing! I want to be a fashion designer (and psychologist/therapist)... I've been trying to get myself back into balance lately...meditation works well for me personally. I'm not exactly sure what the true point of life is...except to live, even you are living off beat. I think the point of my existence is to make a difference, which probably explains why I think waaaay outside of the boxed norm of others (or maybe they don't think or question at all...); sounds to me like you're in the same boat as I am. Someone on here told me not to put so much worry and emphasis on the future and just live for today...I believe the only way to find peace within yourself is to accept ALL of yourself. You might think you're thoughts and insane (I know I have off-the-wall questions about my existence and I drive myself mad everyday, and I feel so isolated because I'm so distanced from everyone else's false world) but they're not, they're real and you should embrace them; in a way they're a gift...and I bet you're destined to make a huge difference in a lot of lives I'm sure a lot of the people that praise from history thought the same as you and I... Personally, I know thing I worry about the most is...people won't appreciate the difference until after I'm dead...
well Pellinore, let me say first, you are not crazy! most people are very shallow, constantly looking over thier shoulders for what to do next. you should be very proud that you can "see" this! you sound alot like me when i was 17,and 46 for that matter!...lol just be yourself and do what you feel is right. if you do that, whats not to be happy about! exept the distane you will always get from people that can't "see". they will make it hard and are never going to go away. well, FUCK THEM, THEIR ALL CRAZY!....LOL just be yourself man, you'll be fine!
"people r strange, when you're a stranger" i have schizophrenia, so im paranoid of everybody anyway, i think, i don't know, people like to be mean, gives them some false sense of satisfaction
Inside every harsh exterior there's a human being who wants to love and be loved. Start with a smile and go from there. It could change your world. It's easy to look at people and see everything that's wrong with them. A little harder to reach out and find some common ground. Worth it though.
^really optimistic thought,kind i needed it but i think when you start seeing the world this way it's hard to go back and be the same person again!
What you're saying is certainly true. But real wisdom comes from realizing that you're no exception to your own observations. Just as you see others with limited viewpoints, you yourself are limited as well. Not necessarily to the same extent, or about the same things in the same way, but the blinders exist none the less. The greatest challenge you'll ever face on your path to happiness and peace is not seeing the world as it is, but learning to love it all the more because it is that way. Seeing the worth of the actions, music, states of mind of others is the first step. This goes beyond trying to explain their actions, likes, or dislikes in a "if I were them" or "they did this because" kind of way. Instead, it approaches the reality that you will never truly know how or why a persons does or feels what they do, but that those decisions make them the beautiful person they are, and to even begin to cast a judgment on that is to conflict your own ideals. As mozart_hippie suggested, finding that common ground among your fellow man is what will breed wisdom, happiness, breadth of experience, and the peace that you seek.
Exactly. What I am saying is you have the power to transform these people through love. I once read this book called the Lazy Man's Guide to Enlightenment. Basically all it said was when things get ugly or frightening you can magically change them by applying love to the situation. It's what the hippies always said.
