when life is causing feelings of pain, sadness and emptiness are we supposed to give in to them, let them defeat us, die and have a rebirth? or are we supposed to fight it with all we have and look towards the hope and faith we have to create out better days? are we found in out defeats or out fights? i have always felt that our fights help us to find our strengths. i've always been strong, but here lately my energy is depleting, i feel deflated and it is happening fast. its not like there is a small prick hole instead my valve has been opened. i feel likt the storm i am weathering is acid rain and it is poisoning my spirit. i'm not sure if this is supposed to be happening to me or if i'm supposed to keep fighting. cause to tell you the truth i am losing my strength, i know i have more that i could dig deep and find but i'm not sure if i am supposed to. perhaps the problem is i am fighting that which i am supposed to let defeat me and in the defeat i will find my victory. or am i just falling into depths of despair? is it my adversary trying to trick my mind into giving up? i'm losing faith, losing pateince, losing light, losing myself. or am i just looking for an excuse to give up? am i just defeating myself? i would listen to my heart, but its shut down right now that which doesnt kill you makes you stronger, right? well do you sometimes need a death and resurrection? perhaps happiness and hope is an escape fromt he realities of lifes harshness. can you ever feel your heart cry? is it the hearts tears that will cleanse?