Every year when I have a week off from work in March, I go to another city to visit my family and friends. This year I have chosen not to go. Part of the problem is a lack of money, part of it is worry about my mother who has been in a nursing home for some years now, and part of is this weird feeling I just can't shake that Something Important Is Going To Happen. I can't explain it and it isn't much easier to describe it. I really miss family and friends back home, and I would be interesed in hearing what others have to say. Have you had similar experiences, and if so, how did they turn out? Is there a word for what I'm going through? Can someone say with some certainty that I'm doing the right thing? My other mother says that she thinks I'm doing the right thing but that she misses me.
why think the weird feeling associates with worry and money which are not weird ? maybe you can drink the strange tea separately ? i follow premonitions . sometimes the diversion seems just dutiful when i'd rather be whimsical . i much prefer having fun ... but by yolly sometimes i have to make something important happen even when it's a lot of lazing around crazy preparing for what? i don't quite at all know .
many times i've had decisions made for me by circumstances, that weren't the choices i would have made at the time, that latter turned out to have been, better then the choices i would have made. some people call this god, or the spirit world, or at least something beyond themselves, opening and closing doors and windows of opportunity. well, maybe it is.
