alot of times i realy feel like im realy going crazy. my life situation is realy horrible. and i feel to just go crazy but i know that nothings gonna become any better if i go crazy. so im stuck. i know to much about life and all its matter but i have also realized what a life i live. so i feel like im going crazy but im smart enough to know that my life is just gonna become worse if i do. so im stuck....
Do something productive. I don't mean a job a wendy's or something, go build a house or something. I think, personally, that if you're bored, doing something overall useful is a good way to spend time that would otherwise be spent moping, and it puts your mind to work. Look up earth building with clay and sand and straw. It's something easy and cheap and somewhat time-consuming that you should be able to do right in the backyard.
yeah ive tried alot of hobbies and stuff like that but i just cant keep on doing these things for different reasons. the only hobbies ive got so far is to play guitar but i need a new string and in my homwtown we used to have a musicstore but it closed so it sucks...
well if you want to kill time the sane way (the boring way) you could always save up for some seeds, get someone with a credit card to place a online order for you, then spend all your time caring for your ethnobotanicals.you could grow cubensis, amanitas, san pedro, peyote, cannibus, salvia, moonflower(just to grow), california poppies, etc. if you failed or had a tough time then it would be entertaining because it would be a challenge, if you succeded then you would have all the drugs you could ever want, a wealth in grow skills, and if you sold um you would have cash. with all that you couldnt stay bored for long.
i can relate. walls have been built up and foundations have been ripped out, i've found in recent months; and it's been my singular fault. best bet; produce your own silver lining from your clouds. then allow the refreshing rain to fall, then no clouds, nice clear sky. comprende? try, maybe, starting work on one of your absolute dreams; what you like to see changed on the planet? and try do it. even if you can't do it by yourself. if it fits in with what i wanna do, you'll have my assistance. if i have yours. its a new project i've got called karmic collective resonemity* (a new word i just made up; responsibility, and emit, and resonance in the same word). cheers. Aslans Wrought-Iron and Rusty Ego
