Im too young to be this fucked up.

Hi, I recently have been taking acid. I have been taking it about 1 or 2 times a month. At first it was amazing; the trips themselves were always great, the time between doses was some of the happiest times Ive ever had, and it brought my friends and I much closer together. But, something scary has been happening to me since my last trip. The trip was... odd. I wasn't happy, or sad, or scared, i felt an emotion i cant describe. It was devoid of all meaning. My friends seemed to be having fun but all i wanted to do was lay there with my eyes shut and watch this eye covered in chains. I was almost bored, as odd as that sounds.

The trip didnt bother me right off either. It took about a week. I was in a car with my buddy and we were smoking some dope. I was laughing and having a good time and all of a sudden i couldn't talk. Then i got really anxious, and wanted to leave really bad, but i couldn't ask them to take me home because I though they would have been pissed (they would have understood completely but i wasn't thinking straight). Then i got all shaky and kind of curled up against the door. I was completely terrified of my friends and began to get very self conscious. At the time i thought i was being sneaky but according to them i was kind of freaking them out.

Now i get that way when ever i smoke pot. And worse i can get that way sober too. I came to school after that and was all self conscious and didnt want to talk to a soul. I contemplated talking to the school drug advisers but have a strong fear of bullshit and the doubtless rehab they would make me attend.

This is probably the stupidest part of my story. I took more acid. And it was fantastic, but i still get self conscious off the cid.

I appreciate anyone who answers this and can offer some help.

 

Yeah, if cannabis messes you up a lot, I'd probably refrain from doing it for a while. Maybe you just need some time to readjust or something.

 

Honestly, I'm going through basically this exact thing. It was triggered from a concussion 2 weeks after my last trip, in which a friend had a semi seizure on shrooms and fell on me and it was one of the most terrifying 5 minutes of my life.

 

too young to be this fucked up? Ok, you didn't give your age anywhere in there so I've got to ask, how old are you?

 

I just turned 18 in december, im not even done with high school yet.

 

ahh your not too young, i was selling acid when i was 17-18.. tripped every other day or 2 for about 6 months straight lol

ya know, one major side effect of weed is anxiety.. especially when smoked for a decent amount of time..

i know a few people who have smoked weed for years, and then just out of nowhere, they either got extremely anxious, or puked even..

i think everyone experiences some sort of anxiety or paranoia sometime off weed..

 

Have a family history of mental illnesses? Could explain a few things

 

i would just stop tripping for a little while. this is obviously an after effect from your trips, and you need to figure it out and face it. without acid.

taking more acid will only make things more complicated. it's like if you were under a magnifying glass and became uncomfortable because it got too hot, and then you said 'yeah its ok add some more magnifying glasses'

 

if it doesn't make you feel good, stop?

i mean try it out when like you think it'd be a good time to, and don't start tripping to begin it, but like i mean, history of mental illness could have affect, i dunno.

edit: also i was doing heroin + coke at 17, you're not bugging out like that? selling some stuff, none of the previous, but what you're talking about, etc.

 

The same thing happened to me after my first acid trip. Pot just stopped "working". Basically I started getting panic attacks similar to the one you described. They never stopped for me(it's been over a year), thus I no longer smoke pot and, to be honest, I don't really want to. I wouldn't worry about your mental health too much, I still drop acid and take other drugs and they're all the same and wonderful. Other people I know are in the same situation, and not one has gone off the deep end. I dunno, hopefully your panic attacks will stop, but I doubt it.

 

totally in the same boat as you man. i figure i'll get over it, but who knows. takin a break from smokin for just a bit...suggest u do the same, it could be that one break that heals ya. (also, try meditation and/or excersize. I found that everytime i take a good run all my anxieties are the last thing on my mind.)

 

yea that is good advice.. exercising can make your body feel great, get rid of some hidden anger/aggression, and help out with anxiety.. not to mention its healthy for you and a good cardio work out..

and maybe just a month break from weed is all you need..

I was in a bar band with my sisters husband, we smoked weed all the time.. jammin out tunes, having fun..
One day, we are smoking some weed.. He takes one Hit (not a huge one either..) he exhaled it, and about a minute later, he puked all over the place lol.. After that he had bad anxiety, he couldnt focus on drumming.. he said was one of the weirdest feelings from smoking weed, and he hasnt smoked since.. about 3 years now..

this story was just to point out, that people, and things do change, and there is no shame in taking a break or even quitting weed. Anxiety can be a big side effect of weed in some people, even if you smoke weed for years without getting anxiety.

 

Take a break for a while. If you smoke weed, just smoke a tiny bit. You're young and time is on your side. Use that to your advantage. There's plenty of time for tripping later. Take it slow.

 

the razors edge narrows as conciousness expands.

 

I recall reading on erowid that ganj can produce flashbackesque feelings every time you smoke it after droppin acid.

 

I got anxiety shit from weed too. It sucks. First I am all shaky, anti-social, scared, and my heart is like boom boom boom, and I even feel it in my head... then after it I am feeling good.

 

Nope. Just another broken promise. I was promised flashbacks.
Where are my goddamn flashbacks? I want my fuckin' flashbaaaacks!!!

ZW eace:

 

Lol, not fullblown flashbacks, just flashbackesque experience. I've def noticed my visuals and feelings during the first hour of my high tend to somewhat resemble the comeup of an acid trip. I also think in only happens to some people, not everyone. I'll search around and see if I can't find that article.

 

Hubada wa? I think LSD has more of a possibility of playing with your emotions, after all, LSD acts on serotonin receptors, which controls you mood among other things. Thats not to say that weed can't mess people up. However, it hasn't for me. There has been only one time when I ever felt anxiety on weed, and that was because I smoked a RIDICULOUS amount.

 

It's not the acute emotional and thought-pattern effects that are worrisome, it's the longterm ones, and THC causes some people to have very serious long term changes to these functions, just like LSD does if done too much.