i'm so full of anger

can anyone even tell or am i that good at hiding it?

 

We thought you were full of something else

 

nope.. don't have an issue there. i eat plenty of fruit.

 

That's gross, you're a girl!

 

i do plenty of other 'gross' things too.. want me to list them for you?

 

I sort of do, now...

 

ppl will always be buying vowels... its something u need to come to terms wit..

 

What has you angry Boogabaah?

 

i use a diva cup
i pick my nose
i fart
i burp
i pop zits
i scratch my crack when it needs scratched
i blow my nose in the shower
i pee in the shower
i sleep on dirty sheets
i have sex and then don't shower for a day

i think thats it.

that.. i am trying to. stupid humans.. maybe i'm just that good at 'wheel of fortune'

 

life.. in general. not fitting in anywhere. feeling disconnected everywhere. people lying to me or others for their selfish benefit. not knowing what to do with myself during the days, i feel i'm wasting time. family treating me like crap. being left out. the way the world seem to be greedy and selfish. feeling like i have no power. feeling stupid.

 

woW, I think you're my dream girl :drool5:

 

you might be surprised at how many ladies would make the same list.. and more.

 

Apart from the hotties? You know, those really hot chicks.

 

"hot" chicks do all that.. and more.

 

NOOOOO

 

That is not a fun place to be in. Sounds as if you have your plate full at the moment.

Working on those must be exhausting.

Do you take time for you? To do something special that you enjoy or want to do?

Sometimes that helps to ride out the times we have negatives coming at us from all side. It can give a little balance to life.

 

i'm trying to work through a lot of this now. i have too much time. i don't really enjoy anything and when i do it brings me to tears and i get embarrassed and don't want others to see.. so i stuff it all down. i feel like i'm in a rut? at a crossroads? and i'm really not sure what i need to do to keep moving forward.

 

Do you know what you are moving forward to? Sometimes that is the most difficult part is to know what the end goal is. Figuring that out is overwhelming when it seems as if all is an obstacle in getting there.

Stuffing it down is only going to hurt you in the end. Even the smallest thing that goes right when life seems to be at it's worst needs to be celebrated. I know that is not easy to do when all else feels like it presses in.

Have you tried, I know it sounds trite, but that everyday at the end of it you just reflect on all or any good that was in it. It does not even need to be a big thing, just the little things in life that make it bearable.

Isolation is not the best either if feeling down, people even when they might be irritating the hell out of you at least do not allow for alone and dwelling time.

I am sorry that you are feeling so overwhelmed right now.

You need to be good to yourself right now.

 

i really try to be good to me. i try to be happy about even the smallest positive things. it's these old feelings i can't shake. i do go see a therapist and sometimes i wonder if its actually helping. i get into the state of .. "if i just had this.. everything would be alright" i know that's not true.. but i can't help but think it anyways.

i feel pretty damn frustrated too.. people who i feel should have treated me better but didn't, seem to be happy. it irritates me. i guess the real reason i'm angry is i feel cheated. i don't have the tools i need to be who i truly am. i'd rather hide or not talk to people than be myself and not liked (loved even) for being me.