I want to quit my job.

I haven't even started yet. I've been a webcam girl for a while, as most of you know, but now i'm sick of it, and i just got a job, and they want me to work full time, and part of me is like "DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IT" and the other part of me is like..

ehhhhhhhhhhhh i dont want to.

I know I NEED the money. But I don't want the money. Basically, I don't even wanna do the job, I have no idea while I applied. I think I was drunk. . . I'm pretty sure I was, but the problem is they like my look. This is the sixth porn company this month asking me to work for them.

I just don't freaking feel like doing it anymore. I want to be rich in life, not in dollars. I want to have a garden, which takes money, and I want to have all of my herbs and oils and teas, which all cost freakin' money!

(Sigh.) The seeds, the dirt, the beds, they all cost money.

I am. So sad. I can't make up my mind. I am very, very indecisive.

 

I'd love to be a porn star. Then again, what 17-year-old wouldn't, right?

How'd you get into that business anyway? If I may ask..

 

You wait until you turn eighteen. Don't do it. The people in the business are disgusting. You're not really enjoying anything. Everyone is a shitty actor and every room "smells funny".

:-/ I Just want to go back to being an engineer. I liked it there.

 

You didn't answer me in the last thread so.. Are you from Finland?

 

so why dont you go back to being an engineer?

 

Naw, I was born in america my grandma is finnish and my grandpa bought an indian. I can't be an engineer yet because it's going to take me a while to finish this other program and I need money now.. designing an entire game on your own isn't always easy

 

can't you get part time anywhere? if not then id just say get the highest paying job available and keep scouting for jobs just in case. If part times not enough money then you could always try putting the garden on hiatus - and budget.

good luck

 

Don't do it !

The porn industry will ruin you... it will make you incapable of you ever getting into a relationship for the rest of your life.. I think you got a kid also ? When she grows up she will definitely not be proud of you...

Remember the means and the ends are equally important whatever it is that you want to achieve... the porn industry is nothing more than super fast expressway to hell... Hell not as in another world... Hell as in a state of mind...

There are so many ways of making money online...

Do you have any programming skills ?

Maybe I could suggest you a thing or too if you are interested... let me know..

And last but not the least

I am not perfect, but the majority of Hip forum members I have seen have
so many major issues with themselves that they are just not in a position to help.

When their own personal lives are so messed up and they are unable to solve the complications of their own creation ? how can you expect any of them to help you in resolving your own life...

My sincere advice is try asking more competent sources

 

wait, wait, wait. you're married to a soldier in Iraq, you live on an army base, you're an engineer and a game designer, 20 years old, and you've been doing porn work? something smells funny allright, I seem to recognize the scent of bullshit.

 

lol jimmy P, You are right, it does smell funny. I just dont see the problem, it seems like you have an abundance of opportunities, Their are plenty of other things besides porn thats as easy as porn, if you dont know then ask me and ill help

 

No I was an engineer, and my husband isn't in Iraq where did that come from.. ~.^

I'm supposed to be working on a game, but lately I've been more like "money now" not "money in the long run".. kind of crazy. I know. It's been more of a thing for me like what's the point? It's a matter of me trying to think, is this REALLY going to help me later on in life? Most places won't hire you unless you have a college education, and I went to college for it but I dropped out. :-/

 

so.. you're an engineer without a college degree? sounds strange.

I thought I'd read something about your husband being in iraq, no matter. he's in the military though, isn't that right? your story still smells funny, Butterfly.

 

Ah, quit picking, she's for real.

 

wtf is your problem Jimmy? Even if my husband was in Iraq what the FUCK does that have to do with anything at ALL?

Yeah some of us can get jobs without college degrees, that's why I'm saying it couldn't continue it you know what you piss me off so much I can hardly type so here's a giant ____ ___!

AND YES, who gives a shit, unless you wanna talk shit, fuck this shit I can't stand people like you.

 

I think you should try going to a therapist to figure out why you don't want to commit to a job for the "long run money" but want the type of job where you "get money right now". There are also classes you can go to, which can help manage money better and get back into engineering. Hope it helped, wish you the best whatever you choose.

 

Somehow I agree with you... but of course it's her life and she has the right to live the way she likes... I myself would do anything else right now instead of my boring job - and no, it has absolutely nothing to do with porn industry. It has to do with education, but I am now counting the weeks that are needed for this semester to end... it seems like forever and I'm really fed up. I think there must be something bout jobs - you can't get to do what you really want or like unless you have your own business...

 

my problem is opinionated, self-righteous hypocritical little girls who don't know their ass from their elbow but think they've got it all figured out.

the fact that I piss you off so much really speaks volumes of your character, and reaffirms my impression of you and what kind of person you are. I hope all your anger brings you the joy you expect it to.

I was questioning the following: a military wife in the porn industry with a past as an engineer who is currently working on developing a video game at the ripe age of twenty.

 

Some people who grow up fast.

Wait, I'm sorry, you're offended by women who are capable of success and have opinions?

 

nope, it takes much more than a girl on the internet to offend me. reading comprehension isn't one of your finer skills either I see. I wouldn't call working in porn while hubby is off playing war "successful," but definitions of success vary, of course.

and opinions are great, but you seem to speak yours loudly and abrasively while not even being sure what it actually is.

 

How much does that pay?