I want my parents to die. This is not teen angst.

My parents came to visit me a few weeks ago.

A moment came when I realized their life's journey is soon to be over. They have fulfilled their purpose, they are suffering (emotionally, they always have), and there is no reason for it to continue. They will never change because they do not desire it. I saw this in them, and lately I have been getting many strange and unexplained feelings, including a sickness that lasted a few days.

I have no qualms with my parents, though I had a rough childhood and adolesence I have made my peace with them. I feel ready to take my place as a man in the world and I know that I won't be able to fully do that until at least my father is dead.

I have no unresolved conflicts or guilt associated with them, as I have felt the grip they had over me dissolve over the years since I have left their house. It pervaded my conciousness until well after I left them, but I have finally broken free of it.

I am ready for the cycle of life to continue. Though of course I do not know exactly when it will happen, I know that it will be soon. I have no regrets. I embrace what awaits me. All of it, the joy and the pain. They come together after all, you can't get a hot dog without the bun!

 

You can get a hot dog with out the bun, they call it a sausage further more if you have "no qualms" with you parents then why did you want to murder them? it sounds like you want to end their "suffering" but dont you think it should be them that decide when they are ready for such a thing to happen? don't you think they should be allowed to have a purpose in life, even if you dont believe in it?

 

Whoa, hold on. I don't want to murder them. I just want them to die.

I didn't say that I want to end their suffering. I simply observed that this is the case and it will soon happen. Frankly, it doesn't bother me either way but it interests me to see the story of their lives coming full circle.

 

Sorry for taking what you said out of context, there are a few extrememe people on this board.

Not that i understand why you want them to die either.

 

do you mean the other Jeffrey Lebowski who had the wife that was resposible for Woo peeing on the Dudes rugs? They come and pee on his fucking rug! Thats right dude they peed on your fucking rug.

 

It did tie the room together too!

 

Huh, not sure what this is all about. I was just thinking to myself "am I the only one who skipped meds today?" Think I had better take my meds cause either I'm undermedicated or this is really whacked out hard to follow delusion of my mind.

 

who are you to decide what their purpose in life is, let alone be the one who says they've fulfilled it and need to die??

you are one sick motherfucker.

 

May I suggest that you need a good swift kick in the ass.. I couldnt even finish reading your post cause it was so ridiculous...

 

I'm glad you are not my kid. If you don't even live with them, they are not bothering you and if you don't like what they have to say, you can just go home....

How...by having you? Get over yourself, you are not that great a feat.

Wishing death on the people who raised you and took care of you is stupid and (I hate using this word) immature. I didn't always get along with my parents, but you know what? I am a grownup now, and I didn't get here on my own. This is exactly "teenage angst"....either that or you are a nutjob who thinks killing them would be helpful....

 

I sense Menendez brothers all over again...

 

how odd, i'm a different person to my father.....I don't have the feeling that he has/can take away from my own feeling of place in the world....

Do you think you have to become your father? fill his boots when he's gone?

 

i thought i understood some of what you were saying in your first post but this seems to be way more understandable...
i think in this kind of setting (forums) it is hard for other people to understand unless they have had time to get use to your way of typing and explaining things...
so yea some of what you said was well lets say a bit confusing....


but anyway back to what i think you were tryingto get at ....hmmm
was it that you realized that your parents are getting older and there for are getting closer to death and you see this as the end to thier journey?
and if thats the case no worries man...i think that thought goes thru alot of peoples minds
its good to hear that even tho you had a rough childhood & adolesence that you can forgive them and move on but i am curious as to why you think you can only take your place as a man when your father dies...

"I feel ready to take my place as a man in the world and I know that I won't be able to fully do that until at least my father is dead."<--- see this kind of makes you look abit cRazY

 

Sorry, but you are not a prince, and your father dying will not make you a king.

If you really think his life is holding yours back, you will be in for a big surprise when he does die....you will still be exactly the way you are now.

Are your parents rich or something? Are you waiting for the money?

 

This is sad.... I hope that my children never feel this way about me. I love them so much and to think they could ever feel this way about me makes me want to cry. I pour my heart and soul into them.

I don't think anyone has the right to say when they think someone should die. Our reality is much bigger then what we see at the moment. Your parents life has much value. You are not the only person in their life.

I say you need some help, counseling, or maybe a deep look within.

 

yellowbellyhippy you are so right...
i was trying to point out the most positive side i could but i would most definetly be heartbroken if any of my children were to think something like that...
what i ment was i myself have had thoughts that my parents are getting older and that means at some point (hopefully later rather then sooner) they will be done with thier "journey" thats all i was able to connect with
but my goodness the whole bit about taking his place as a man and only being able to do that when his father dies...well thats just weird

side note.. i love my mom & dad
not sure why but i just wanted to say that

 

its not like his parents are dying a slow miserable painful death and wants to put them out of their misery...

 

Well ...

Honestly, I understand where the original poster is coming from.

Right now, I wish my parents would die as well. Except, it's not because I'm at peace with them, I truly hate them right now (or at least my father), and I have for a few years.

I completely understand the view that they have "fulfilled their purpose," because my parents also have, I just haven't come to peace with them (nor do I really plan on it). Like the original poster, my parents just ... they don't want to change. They KNOW that they are doing a bad job of just ... everything in general, and they are so ridiculously ignorant and arrogant, and they have this web of control that they are exercizing over me that I literally just can't get out of, and it's sick because it makes them feel even more powerful.

Anyway, enough about my parents. I guess I'm just defending the original poster because I completely sympathize with him. Perhaps one day I'll come to peace with it all, but ... he makes a lot of sense, don't bash him just because of his view on his parents.

Peace out.

 

My parents are beyond crazy and treat me like absolute shit, but I in no way shape or form want them to die..

this thread is really a good example of why not to have kids....

 

I hope to one day make affordable psychiatric care available to all. Those of you who hate your parents are still letting them control your thoughts more than you realize. You need to learn to self actualize and be constructive about the problem.