I've always been very selfconscious of my weight since the elementary school days,you know the bullying years,this has always stuck with me and for a long time I used to comfort eat when I'd get depressed about it. For the last three weeks I've been eating little to nothing and getting bad stomach cramps whenever I do eat. I know they'd go away if I went back to a normal eating schedule but I can't bring myself to do it as I'm terrified of putting the weight back on that I've taken off. I've actually been on a really fucked eating schedule for about four months now,going from periods of bingeing to times of absolute starvation. I know I need to stop it before it gets too bad but I don't know what to do. I can't go to a doctor or shrink or whatever cause I'm living in a differant country now and am not covered for it,is there any other solution?