I think I'm a schizo..

IDK what it is .. but recently I've been having terrible almost flashback type occurences when i smoke weed

I go in and out of reality, almost like i'm watching a terrible horror movie but i'm part of it.. last night I had a firecracker before i went to sleep and woke up in the middle of the night shaking like a nervous wreck - my personality seems to change every few weeks too, i'll be passive for a few weeks then the next few weeks i wont give a shit about anything

last night was by far the worst i've had the flashbacks, it lasted a good few hours and i couldn't get it to stop, i wanted to maintain and stay in reality but my mind kept sinking back in and i would go through the whole torture-fest over and over, almost in a repetitive circle

I dont really know how to explain it other than that... is there something wrong with me?

 

it's really freaking me out.. and its getting harder to explain what i mean and my feelings on it

 

quit smokin weed. some people can't. sounds like you're one of 'em.

 

Yeah I'm like that too.

Like when your high you'll be having a great time and then all of a sudden you think of something and you can't stop thinking about it and then you get all sad and shit.

Am I right?

 

kindof.. but it'll keep switching from topic to topic and in between i'll snap back to reality, but for so little of an amount of time until i trance out again.. i try to snap myself back to reality and stay there but it gets harder and harder the more i try.. that's when i start freaking out and just want it to stop.. sometimes i have an urge to call an ambulance to come and tranq. me it gets that bad

 

same here.

Im fine when im alone but out side, stoned or not i feel fucked up.

 

Well rushing thoughts are one symptom of schizophrenia and the lesser schizoaffective disorder



Hotwater

 

Stop smoking weed. Hotwater is correct, but I don't think you would find a mental health professional that would diagnose you shizotypal, schizoeffective, or whatever as long as you are still doing drugs. There is such a thing as marijuana induced psychosis, and it should serve as a warning...WEED IS NOT FOR YOU. If you insist to keep smoking weed, this may have well been your precursor to real mentall illness.

Solution: Stop smoking weed, get exercise and eat healthy and don't worry too much about it because that can become a neurosis in and of itself.

Good luck

 

thanks all

I'll take the advice and lay off the weed for a good while, maybe i'll try it again someday when i'm not stressed out.. i think that's why it screws me up all the stress builds up and if i have weed it just adds to it and amplifies everything and makes me freak out

but I forgot to mention the auditory hallucinations too.. i felt like people were yelling at me and my parents were talking and right beside me.. or the devil was screaming in my ear, etc. - that had to be the most fucked up night in my life

 

I had the same thing. I was living in the upstairs room of a really old (15th century) pub where a double homocide/suicide had happened about 200 years ago and was rumored to be haunted by the killer, who was the old owner of the place. I was really stressed and not feeling well and then smoked a joint (really small amount compared to what I was used to) and got really paranoid, so I went to bed but couldnt fall asleep because I thought the ghost was messing with me or the devil was yelling it me. It was like a really low voice that was scary as fuck saying fucked up things. It took me about a year to recover from this happening, and I don't smoke weed anymore let me tell you that.

I have OCD, but after this happened I thought that I was schizo too. I stopped smoking weed and Im doing perfectly fine now, just living with my OCD and trying to control is as much as possible.

I have a history of mental illness in my family, and now I know that weed is not for me. I also have a history of popping E pills, which I think a few sour pills definitely made my OCD worse and probably layed the seeds of that little psychotic episode which I described.

I think your brain is trying to tell you something. Stop smoking weed. Don't wait til you're not stressed and then start up again. Just do something else, more productive for fun or to relax. Because I honestly don't think you or I are the right candidates for even soft drugs.

and yes, it was the most fucked up night of my life too. The next morning I had to go to work and I was all shaken up but at the same time obviously didn't want to say anything about what happened for fear of being fired or stigmatized...not cool.

 

Dont worry about it its just trying to take you to the source but your ego is scared. And about the crazy part you are just being aware of your subconscious, trust me the subconscious is fuckin wack i go there sometimes and it will always scare ya and make you feel insane.

 

Quit weed, like I did.

 

^^^

Blasphemy

 

dude iv read cannabis and meditation by simon jackson and it changed my life. cannabis anxiety is something that is common and can be controlled!!! weather your psychotic or not that's for a doc to decide

 

where do I learn more about this?

 

try popping thizz aka ecstasy.

Theres a lot of evidence showing that it helped people with traumas or bad experiences and it definitely helped me have a more positive outlook on life and possibly, save me from suicide.

 

Auditory (or "aural") hallucinations are very common on weed. I get them quite strongly, and so do some of my friends. Yes, they can be annoying, and can create or amplify paranoia and other negative emotions, but it's also not rocket science to "get over it", mentally. Just confront them next time you're high, and you'll see they are nothing.

I have a saying I always say anytime me or my friends are doing or saying something that I think will lead to a bad trip.

It's never worth a bad trip.

If you are having bad times on drugs because you can't stop thinking about issues, then just convince yourself the above statement is true.

 

don't smake weed! :sifone:

 

I'm pretty sure your just playing with yourself a bit too much. Remember, you'll get hairly knuckles too...LOL!!

 

Wow this is crazy... I thought I was the only one feeling this... but when I smoke weed I just think that everyone is against me talking about me trying to plot some type of revenge for some unknown reason... Its so hard to explain what I'm feeling because im not exactly sure what it is that I'm feeling... It's leading me to believe that its the weed... I cant stop because i love weed its the most beautiful natural substance that can make you feel so good and happy but it can also make you so paranoid to the point that it aint even comfortable.... I think its the town i am living in also... i feel so out of place here causing me to think that everyone is against me... weed could be the possible cause for the feeling of everyone being against me... and I thought i was the only one... everyones input has helped me alot so thank you... my conclusion is to take a break from the magical green and pursue it when im out of this horrable town and away from all the negativity that i dont want in my life!