We've been split nearly half a year, and we didn't even go out that long. Our circumstances couldn't have been any worst. There are less troubles on an Eastenders ommnibus! Circumstances that made me a horrible person. I don't talk myself down, but I am a realist. I was awful, made awful by the awful things in my life. I am so different now, which in a way makes it almost worst.being so right together in every way, just for it to be taken away. I'm not a little girl anymore, I've dated other people since, and that's how I know this is so different from anyone else. I still miss him like we broke up last week. I hate that we met then, and that it all could have been so different. There are people who come into your life and help you realise. If I'd not met him then, I'd not be who I am today. His strength made me realise a lot about my own life and its truths. We both lost so much when we broke up. I know he feels the same. I would be so happy just to have him back in my life once more.
I wrote it here cos I hadda get it out my head, it was driving me crazy.We were both going through really bad times. Our relationship was too new to put up with those kinda strains.
Where did you get the idea someone cheated? no one cheated. It was bad times is all. I'm feelin kinda silly about talking about this on here now. Just, I hadda get it out my mind. .
don't feel silly about posting that here, if you needed to get it out of your mind nothings wrong with that, and if ever need anyone to talk to you can im me my sc name is MEltingpOpsicle9.
Thanks. That's really nice of you. I'm probably just feelin a lil weird cos I'm usually a pretty private person, and now I kinda feel exposed. heh. But you're right 'it's good to talk'. Nothing I can do about all this anyway, everyone's making it impossible. Damn interfering people.
My apologies to my last post then, I made the assumption tis all...Like he said above let us know, we are all willing to talk and give advice on whatever. Sometimes it definatly helps bringing things out in the open though. You get a little sense of relief as it is not all bottled up anymore.
Aww.. thanks for all for ya support. Nice to know there are some great people here to talk to if needed. . You know what though...I decided to let sleeping dogs lie. I lost, is all. I've sorted so much in my life since then, maybe having him in my life right now wouldn't be so healthy as it's kinda going back on myself. But who knows, I might get him as a friend at least one day. ( I seriously don't mean it in a sneaky way, i'd just be happy to have him in my life again.). Marie-Clare xxx
Marie-Clare..... I have an ex-boyfriend (from four years ago) that I still think about all the time. He played an amazing part of my life, but I just couldn't be with him anymore at that time in my life. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason so if you two were meant to be together than somewhere down the road it will happen. If not, maybe he was just meant to help you realize what you wanted out of life.
Thanks Smilez! ( great name! hehe). Yeah, I totally agree with you..I'd been thinking that too..I guess me moving n stuff made me go a little crazy! hehe. I humiliated myself infron of him yet AGAIN and sent him a msg tellling him how much i understood and missed him in my life, NO response! I think I have closure FINALLY! heh. Marie-Clare xxx
I totally humiliated myself once too. Worst still, I even drove over to his place unannouced when he's told me to stay away from him.. not to mention I also cried over the phone in a busy restaurant saying all the stuff that I do not want the whole world to know.. Called his house numerous times, even went to ask his mom to give him something for me! Man! I can't believe I did that! OOh... to make myself look worst, I even took the liberty of paying his phone bill which he blamed on me. Hahaha.. I was such a loser Marie Clare, you are strong so I know you will come out of this alright. You just need time and lots of TLC!
