tripped on new years eve. and tripping again now. already starting to feel it, so not sure why i'm making this post. but i should still trip two nights after the last trip right? i took one hit new years eve and again another one tonight.
It's too late to be wondering if you should have dosed tonight or not. For future reference, go at least 3 or 4 days between trips.. At least.
How did it go? I'd imagine it'd be one of those really disappointing trips where the peak never comes.
i tripped decently. i somehow came to the conclusion that these "higher intelligences" that i tap into while tripping don't need any psychedelic assistance. but now that i'm not tripping anymore, part of me is second-guessing that in the fact that i once again feel cut off from these other-worldly realms.
your confusion comes from your belief that these realms are other wordly they are here, the bits between the bits.
it's hard to see it though! it's not fair. it's such a bitch, it makes me want to cry. not even joking.
Seeing it and it being real are two different things. You also probably can't "see" the true scale of the physical universe, yet it's there. Your understanding of it is secondary. It is a detail. Peace is found when you stop trying to fit the cosmos in a teacup.
hahaha i just wish i could see the universe all the time the way that your picture is. not, really, but i don't know. sometimes i feel like that.
Yeah, I wish i could always feel the way i do tripping. Something about the feeling is just true nirvana.
Investigate what it is that changes between tripping and not tripping. What takes this feeling away from you. Look into this and maybe you'll discover things.
meditation perhaps? as a means of investigation i mean? i wholly agree with you though. if i could only close the gap, which i totally think is possible, then i'd never trip again.
yeah i have put in serious effort to try to understand the whole thing when i haven't dosed, but it is just so hard for me. Its like trying to reach something that i'm not tall enough for, and lsd is the only latter tall enough. I have tried meditation and that doesn't work. My mind is just so ignorant its hard to change it's ways.
Meditation is right, but that word has such varied meaning for people, I am using it in a very specific sense, so let me use a better word. "What happens between tripping and non-tripping" this is your koan. Investigate it. I recommend just thinking about it, nothing fancy. Leg positions and breathing rhythm not important, just like the color of your eyes isn't. Just look. And don't give up. And don't stop looking when you get an answer. And don't stop looking when you get a dead end, which is a kind of answer. Stop looking when the need to investigate this has expired, but not through finding an answer. And not through giving up either. Another way! Find it.
you sound like varied spiritual teachers that i have come across. "investigate until the investigator extinguishes itself" type of thing.
It makes sense you are cut off from those feelings, I'd imagine after your last trip, you needed realizations to help you balance out to a good point. Perhaps you were meant to trip so shortly thereafter. I like to go on trip weekends, so you don't always have to wait, but its probably recommendable.
when you have a bad enough trip you wont believe how relieving it is to finally come back to this 3d shit
