I screwed up badly. Like x4.

I think the worst of our sins happen when we are at our most vulnerable. I went as far as shitting on my friend simply because I was lonely than tried to convince her basically boyfriend that it would be a good idea to go behind her back and do stuff... what on earth was I thinking. I can't believe I did that. Him and I got into a huge fight last night over it, but I suppose it doesn't help he tries to say he doesn't want her. He's a liar too, I guess it's not just me. I guess I'm just so lost I'm looking for trust and respect anywhere I can and this kid was one of my closest guy friends and I just feel like I lost him and a few other people because I was selfish and stupid and I'm just so regretful. My friends have always have been my biggest priority I'm not sure where my head is at these days, it's like periodically have these times where I lost sight of everything and everyone in my life and I just kind of go on a rampage and hurt whatever lies in my path. You know I always describe other people as the tornado, but maybe I'm the tornado. Maybe everything I touch turns to stone and I'm creating wreckage and expecting other people to pick it http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/images/smilies/frown.gifup. What am I doing?

Sincerely,
Lost in the mix

 

Shit happens. You might want to post this in the relationships forum.

Maybe you could put this on paper on show it to your friend (minus the "he doesn't want her" part).

You can tell your friend that you want to try to make up for what you've done, if that's possible.

Please don't torment yourself too much, stuff like this happens all the time. Good luck!