I hear you! Giving and receiving love can be such a wonderful thing, and even though I've yet to experience it with another man, I yearn for that. And in such a relationship you can never underestimate the opportunity for near daily sex, especially gay sex, which is all I want nowadays. But my relationships with girlfriends have definitely been extremely challenging, and I'm certainly not looking to repeat any of that with a guy. Maybe part of it has always been that they were just the wrong sex (gender). So I'm open to having a boyfriend, especially a guy who truly loves me and truly wants me to be happy (what better definition of love can there be). But I'm open to just having a special friend with benefits, a fuck buddy to do lots of friendship things together with as well. I'm tired of all the extreme effort needed to hook up with guys in each other's homes, and I've never really enjoyed the anonymous suck & fuck scene in bathhouses etc., which requires little effort, but overall is just without much meaning. No, a boyfriend or FWB FB is what I really need! Big time!