I Have No No Life

So what do I do? What hobbies do I have? I play one game, Everquest 2. So people would say I have no life right? I just go and play the game all day? Well, I don't.

I go and sit at the character creation screen all day.

I don't have any characters.. because I deleted them all.

So I don't have a life, and I've spent the last two days making and deleting characters, and I still haven't made one.

So my total play time was less than five minutes, and I didn't get any REAL thing done, like homework.

I don't have any other hobbies, or anything. I've had this character creation problem for well... over a year. I've had the 2nd game for about 160 days now, and I still haven't made a character I like.

I feel really bad right now. Saturday and Sunday are going to be homework from when I wake up until when I go to bed.

I wasted a four day weekend, and a ton of time, not enjoying myself, and not getting anything done.

Every time I make a character that I like, I play them for maybe 8 hours or so, then I delete them.

I want to do something else but the computer, and I've done seaches on hobby sites and stuff, but none of that stuff was appealing. I have no artistic ability in any area.

The only other things I do are play chess on Yahoo and come here, and rarely I visit other sites, rarely.

I was reading Benjamin Franklin's Wit and Wisdom, and some of the things in there make me angry at myself, like
"Be always ashamed to catch thyself idle"
and
"Those who are fear'd, are hated"
and many more things he said.

I used to be incredibly schizotypal (meaning I had thought distortions), but I've spent a large amount of time studying the basis of thought processes (political philsophy is one of the main thought processes) and it isn't much of a problem anymore. Now I am just a shizoid (in my case, that means I don't talk to anybody while in large groups, like in large classes and also I don't talk around people I don't really know even in small groups sometimes, especially if I feel I am being judged). I don't know if its because I am just shy around people I don't know or I don't know what to say, or a combination of the two.

I used to think about suicide often, like for hours everyday. I don't anymore, now the only time I think about suicide is when I am very stressed and tired (like when its 4 A.M. and I've still got hours of homework to do that is due the next day). So thats maybe 5 minutes a month I think about suicide, so its not a real problem. I am not suicidal.

I feel like my life is going nowhere though. What am I going to do in my life? I'm going to work my ass off in highschool, go to collage and work my ass off, then I'll get a job when I work, and I probably wont work that much, because I wont need that much money, because since I don't have any hobbies or interests, I wont be needing the money.

I don't want kids (I'll leave it up to you all to keep the human race going, okay?) and I'm pretty sure I will never get married.

I'm pretty friendless. I mean I don't hang out with people, but I do have a lot of very nice aquiantences that can be considered friends and are nice. I don't have any enemies in real life (none at highschool). I know people, and I talk to people thoughout the day at school, but they've all got friends who they hang out with out of school, and I don't hang out with them.

This is probably the most messed up thing about me but, I don't like talking to people in real life. Its different than on the internet, I am posting this for some person I don't know to read and respond to, but in real life talking to people is a lot of stress, and it makes me feel awful. I don't know what to say, I am constantly reminded of how lifeless I am.

 

I'm sorry about my method of speech.

 

well, i wouldnt worry about having no life, you are only 15 you have a long time to turn that around (but dont wait too long!) the only question i think you really need to answer is, what makes you happy?

If you can be happy regardless of how you do it then you are truely alive.

 

Dude, Everquest 2 is a good game, I'm doing Dungeon Siege 2 now, but I can't wait for Neverwinter Nights 2...btw, why isn't there a gaming board on here? Plus its kinda hard to make a character that works well on multiplayer when everyone is cheating anyway. What other RPGs do you play?

 

See above post for prime example of random thought processing

 

Speaking of sequels, I also can't wait until Neverwinter Nights 2 ...

Anyhow, relax. It sounds to me like Everquest is just getting boring to you, which is why you won't create any new characters; perhaps you're losing interest in it?

Check out some other games, try to pick up hobbies that you always wanted to. Try learning a martial art, or how to snowboard or skateboard, or (my favourite) how to play a good game of footbag.

 

Get your arse off the computer and have a walk around.

 

If you are bored of your life then find something to do!Try trying some different things, even if you think you won't like them because you never know! and if you don't like them then just stop. Maybe some sports or how about photography? i like photographing landscapes and nature -you don't have to talk to anyone then, haha! It sounds like most of the things you do are indoors? Try doing something outside, like going for a walk somewhere really beautiful if you can. I find nature really inspirational and being outside always makes me feel loads better!
Hmmm when I was 15 i hated my life and thought it was boring- it was just going to school basically but things in life change especially if you want them to.

 

Hello,

I understand exactly how you feel. It sounds weird, but its sometimes HARD to find things to do, things to live for, things to make you alive. I used to have this exact same problem.

It really comes down to knowing yourself. If you have explored yourself, know exactly what you like and what you dont, what youd like to do in the future, where youd like to go...things become a lot clearer. You gain a sense of direction. Make a list of things youd like to do before you die...this can be your starting point. You can then start thinking about how you can go about getting these things later on. Also make a list of things youd like to change right now. If, say, you decide youd like more friends, write that down. Then you can say-well, if i went out more, joined clubs, chatrooms etc, this could happen. And continune like that until you have a decent-sized list.

The others are right-youre young. People our age have a long, long path of opportuinty ahead of them. Who knows what could happen? You say you dont want to marry(i also used to say this)...but how do you know you wont meet the man of your dreams within the next few years? How do you know you wont fall in love, fall pregnant, be offered a job abroad, gain a rich friend who wants to spoil you...the possibilities are truly endless. Anything could happen in this life. All you can do for now is prepare yourself for it...develop as a person, learn to be happy, learn to be you....

You could also try reading more books, talking to people more in school, and visiting more websites instead of playing your game. But of all things, id definitely advise you to write out a few lists about things. Theyre really useful and make things a lot clearer.

Xx

 

"You say you dont want to marry(i also used to say this)...but how do you know you wont meet the man of your dreams within the next few years? How do you know you wont fall in love, fall pregnant, be offered a job abroad, gain a rich friend who wants to spoil you..."


- You wouldn't know, but I am a heterosexual male. Your being nice, so I wont say anything about what I took from your post. For an idea on my views on marriage, please visit www.nomarriage.com .

 

ever see that movie groundhog day??

 

I would rather have no life than the one i have right now

 

No

 

i've been depressed too around 15-17 years old, i came from a pretty sick family and it all hit me about my sophmore to senior years. i remember feeling useless and bored all the time. the biggest mistake i made back then was hurrying up and getting married to get out of the house, that was in 1967, and i married a man that was just like my family members, abusive and mean always putting me down. when i really started to live was when i had the courage to leave this man and take my two kids with me. it was alot of responsibility, but i made it, had some excellent adventures. what i really wish though was that i had found a support group back then to talk with other kids that felt like i did and realize it was all from my abusive family always putting me down. maybe you could look at what is really making you feel sad and bored and then deal with it. therapy and counseling, support groups helped me to get my life together and i am so happy now. found true love, but had to learn to love myself first.
hippiewise angel

 

Thats really weird. Why did i assume you were a hetero female?...

My minds the most mystifying piece of shit.

I should really give up one day

 

what is the definition "to have a life"? being a robot, doing what everybody else is doing?
Sure, u live in a virtual world, but, some times u need that to define yourself.
NOt wanting any kids? don't worry, there are many people out there not wanting any kids. you just don't know them, but they are out there.
This has been my challenge in life: to find people i feel connected to: it's part of our "lesson", some times, to go out there and find the real friends.
15? you have already come far, in a way, with your integrity. Most teens are dominated by group pressure.
But: accept also that you don't have the truth in everythin,and open up to new ways and people and just let go.... some times it is good to let others be inside your bubble....

 

first I have to say don't let a website like that influence your views on marraige, make your own decisions, you never know who you're going to meet. Don't think all women are bad or whatever because you are closing yourself up to loads of opportunites. Personally I don't think marraige is important if you're in love with someone, I don't know if I ever want to get married, but still don't shut yourself of from it and from people.

Hmmm anyway what I'm trying to say is don't close yourself up to things,try new stuff (I don't mean marraige,haha!) and don't become cynical too young!

 

I think the definition of "to have a life" isn't to do what everybody else is doing, but its to atleast see other people and call them, and maybe even chat with them online.

I don't think all women are bad or that there is a conspiracy or anything negative about women. The problem with Nomarriage is that does a ton of woman bashing, but fails to acknowledge that men are just as obnoxious. I don't think its a conspiracy, I think it happens on an individual basis. If I ever do meet a girl that I like, I would consider a relationship, but I don't think that its likely, but I feel like I am protecting myself, not limiting myself, and maybe even in a twisted aspect (financially) giving myself more opprotunity.

I think that marriage has lost all meaning, all value. Its just become another industry, the divorce industry. The Eighth Amendment doesn't apply to civil cases (with the exception of land sezuires by the government), so theres no protection agianst frivilous lawsuits or insane amounts of child support and alimony.

As for cynicism. I never really did much expanding on it, but I really do believe that all evil has sprung from human's greed, but I don't have a cynical personality, like as in "A cynic would say". If you think about it, why do we have racism?

I used to be really depressed, but its not as bad now. I'm really bad at talking to people.

 

Green you say uor definition of 'having a life' is socializing, now if that is what makes you happy then by all means do it, if you are just to shy/nervous work on it and just keep trying however if you really dont care for it why bother?

personally dont worry about 'having a life' just work out what makes you happy and go for it.

 

Ok, well I would like to give some great amazing advice about talking to people but I have the same problem, I am useless at talking to people. I can only talk properly to people i am very close to, which isn't many really. I have been told it gets better with age but I don't know really.