I have a problem with it

Well. It's not a problem with marijuana in particular, it's more of a personality problem I guess.

Whenever I find something I actually enjoy in life, I tend to cling to it, which is normal right? Well for me it turns into a problem. Because if I enjoy something I have to be doing it ALL THE TIME.
For me, I find marijuana enhances things, music, art, my appreciation of nature and life, just reflecting and all kinds of things I really consider positive.

But there is the problem, I have the logic, well If I'm not high, I'm not getting the fullest joy out of whatever activity im doing.

So I spend my nonhigh time like damn I need to get high, not to escape, just to make everything twice as good as it already is. So I kinda end up making my life revolve around it, than part of my life.

I don't blame it on the herb, I blame on myself. It's just who I am.

But I really wanna try to enjoy life without having to be high all the time you know? Find joy just doing things for the fun they have in themselves.

But you know, theres always room for enhancing them haha. So quit? no.

Cut back and try not to have that logic about it? yeah.

anyone else get what im saying here?

 

quit until you have some self control...learn to function without it again, then go back and enjoy it but dont over do it.

like everything

moderation is key

 

I can't believe how weird this is. I was just googling marijuana addictions cause I feel what u\you feel haha, then I thought I'd check to see if anyone hear felt what I was feeling. And I have this marijuana forum part bookmarked so I came here, clicked this thread cause I'm a lil stoned, not sure what I am doing, then read this and ya dude, I feel exactly what you feel.

I'm going to type back here when I'm not stoned, cause I have the same problem.

I think I built a dependance too, when I try to stop smoking every day, I stop eating, lose weight, and can't sleep. Probably some phsycological shit though cause it's not supposed to be addictive.

 

Practically anything can be psychologically addicting and habit forming...I understand completely what you mean, it's way too easy to get in the habit of wake and baking everyday and then re-upping that feeling before you do something you enjoy (sports, tv, whatever). I really think people grossly misjudge marijuana's addictive potential; it won't make you sick or hurt by not having it but it sure will make you think in constant loops about it, how to get it, the taste, smell, etc. = addiction?

 

I know exactly what you mean, man.

 

me too... i just started smoking a herbal mix to try and quit.
day 1. so far so good.

 

For me, although I do agree with what everyone is saying, I keep it on a tight rein. I don't smoke in the morning, and I don't smoke at work. I smoke at night when I get home as a reward of the day. It's all about setting ground rules with yourself. You can break them once in a while but I'm talking like once a month, but other wise stick to it. Make rules you know you can keep. It's called self-discipline. I'm not saying I don't break down once in a while and of course there are always exceptions to the rule like a holiday. April 20th comes to mind. Hell, then I try and smoke all day. This is one of the reasons that I feel that people should not start smoking until they are older, when they begin to develop and have a better understanding of your own limits. Good Luck.

 

today i've been doin good, although i've been smoking Im balancing it.

I had a wake n bake, chilled and n such for a bit. Then I got some things done around the house. Just smoked again and this is what im doin now.

 

Good to hear things are well man, keep it up and use your motivation of not wanting to be a COMPLETE burnout fuel you haha. One of my biggest issues is that I just simply like to smoke so if I don't toke I'll usually end up smoking cigs which I quit...sort of lol.

 

I probably won't tell you anything you didn't already know.

Yea, things can be even better when you're high.

But if you do it too often, it becomes normal. The feelings while being high will sort of become... well... normal, like a base for your conciousness. Then when you are not high, things and feelings will seem just like, "meh. drag along, drag along... unimportant."

You can smoke so much that the "high" becomes your "base", your normal; or you can make it special, fun, insightful, spiritual, whatever. Your sober will change for the better, too. You have to make a firm decision about this.

All you have to do, is not smoke as often. Just hold yourself off the ground until you don't have to anymore, and the task of not smoking won't seem like such a task anymore.

 

yeah i just now smoked for the first time today,, haha about to go bed though.

ah yeah i smoke a lot of cigs man. hard to quit those aint it? haaa.

uh yeah dude i could see that, you make it sounnd like some kinda zen buddha talk man. haha. like a way to do things in matters of the the herb.

welll peace.

 

I think every stoner has that conversation with themselves at least once. I had to learn to like sobriety the hard way(probation) and I realized that I like being sober more than I like being high. So now I mostly only toke before bed and during the day on special occasions.

 

If it increases your overall appreciation of the world then keep on tokin

 

Its psychologicaly addictive though

 

Yeah man, it really does. But I know it's not possible to be high all the time, and thats what I do. But when I run out, It's like fuck man, I need more and I don't really do shit until i get some more, cause I don't enjoy anything. I don't blame that on some kinda herb withdrawal lol. It's just how I've always been I just get caught up in negative thinking and I find it hard to really get into a task and get enjoyment out of it, any task really. Being high just makes me not like that, but i gotta learn how to not be like that when I don't have any herb I feel.
But really, I agree, herb is a beautiful thing that has positive effects on me, now im kinda smokin once a day, and even the day after I toke the night before, I feel nice. I just feel calm and happy and not anxious and shit, even with that one time a night toke.