I hate having a penis

I’m masc, bi but 99.9% gay, I don’t have any desire to “ fuck “ anything or anyone. My anus IS my only sex organ. I orgasm and cum but don’t ever really get hard, my penis is comically small.

I want it gone but it’s difficult. Two different therapists and three doctors. The major stopping point seems to be that I don’t want hormone therapy and I’m masc presenting.

Anal sex is fantastic for me personally but it takes a bit of prep time. I want my partners to have another option. I’m really frustrated. It’s my body, I’m almost 50 years old and I know what I want. Why do so many other people get a say in this?