I just wanna give up! I have no idea what sexuality I am. I thought I'l compile a list. I'm friends with more girls than I am guys, because guys sort of intimidate me. But I am beginning to get more guy friends now. I haven't had a serious relationship for the past 3 years, because everyone thinks I'm gay when I try to say I'm not. I watch gay porn and I'm turned on by it. I have no desire to get married and have a family with a man, nor have any sexual experiences with one. I like women, and I want to spend my life with one, have kids etc. I think I might be bi, because of the porn thing. What do you reckon?
It's one thing to be turned on by gay porn... Do you acutally want to have sex with another man and are you attracted to men?
Well, it depends. Being gay is just a bit more than getting turned on by guys or watching them naked. If you don't really want to get into a relationship with them, but do with a girl and have feelings for girls, then I'd say you're Bi, but uhm...kind of hard to explain. Nobody's 100% straight as far as I've seen, So I'd say you're kind of...straight quasi-bi? I wouldn't worry about the being friends with more girls than guy thing...girls (who aren't shallow or anything like that) tend to be more...accepting(? thinking of acceuillant french translator please) than guys who think only with their dicks. *tries to think before writing* Want to get a relationship with women, not men. +1 straight. You are turned on by men. +1 gay. >.< confuzled! I'd say you're...straight with a twist. It's hard for me to word this cause it's the same for me. Not not having been in a relationship for 3 years, but the general straight but gay porn watching thing.
Can I be honest? It sounds like you might be gay, but in denial. My experience was that through highschool, even though I looked at gay porn, I had a strong desire to be with a woman and have a family. I told myself that I could never see myself with a man; I just couldn't picture ever liking it. When I hit about 19, my whole perception changed and I finally accepted that I was gay. Soon after, I started seeing that I had just as bright a future as a gay man -- I could still be in a long-term relationship, have children, live a "normal" life. That's just my experience though. Take it for what it's worth.
Take time to work it out. You could be gay and in denial, like Ian said, but maybe not. The thing about gay porn doesn't matter in the slightest. I'm gay and easily get turned on by straight porn and it really doesn't get me thinking twice about my sexuality. I bet most guys would get turned out by gay butt-secks but are just too scared to admit it. Through time and experience you'll become more sure of yourself. Just don't give up and maintain an open mind.
