I finally lost my virginity. O.O

It was a boring day kinda. Me and my neighbor and my younger brother were hanging out, me and him were hiding behind the high school smoking cigarettes and then we got up and walked down to get some ice cream. I had no idea what came over me, but I suddenly felt very, er... lustful. Not for him O.O This guy'd actually repulsive to me. Well, I wouldn't go that far, I mean, he's not ugly, I'm just not at all attracted to him whatsoever. LOL. Well, anyway, It got worse and worse until I finally pulled him aside and said "We should do it." He's all, "What?" and I said, "We should have sex."
He was totally shocked. He'd begged me for sex time after time and I always said no because he repulsed me. Hahaha. But seriously. He's like "Really?" and I said "Yep." And we both laughed excitedly, grabbed my poor little brother who already had to sit around while we smoked so we wouldn't get in trouble and we told him what we were going to do. He looked disgusted lol. But anyway, we stopped by his house, he got a blanket and some condoms and we walked off down the road.
We came to this area behind a fence, kind of like a long cement drain or canal or something, with no water in it. We climbed down in there and there were two sets of tunnels, side by side, shady. We sat in one. I asked for another cig for my nerves, I smoked it fast and my brother had one too. Then we told him to wait there, and I followed him into the next corridor.
We stood there an awkward moment, he laid a towel out. I layed down on the towel while he rummaged through his backpack for the condoms. He asked me if I was ready. I was nervous as hell, almost crying. He hugged me and told me it was okay. He asked again if I was ready. I said he had to kiss me first. He got down on the floor and we started making out, like a lot of carressing and tongue action. I said I was ready. I slipped my jeans off but my shirt still hung below my thighs. I turned away and lifted my shirt over my head and the breeze felt really nice. I made a comment about how being naked felt so good.
I got rid of my underwear and finally we were both naked. I layed down onto my back on the blanket and he told me how beautiful I looked. He insisted he knew what he was doing, and I told him numerous times that I was a virgin, but I began to get the feel that he was too. Anyways, however long it took us to get it right, we started fucking hard. It hurt pretty bad at first and I was almost crying. In the middle of it he pulls out and asks if I'd give him a blowjob. It was wierd but I said sure. He took the condom off. I didn't mind it, he didn't taste bad or anything. After that we tried a few different things, but we found the best way was my feet around his neck. We went on that way, I gave him a handjob, he went down on me, and hell my brother was making more noise in the other tunnel than we were.
We eventually decided to head home to avoid trouble.
We dressed and got my brother, rinsed off in some guys sprinklers and I avoided my mom cause I still smelled like cigarette smoke and god knows what. My mom never found out, or at least not so far. That was two days ago.
The few hours after, I was repulsed at myself... because I just casually slept with someone I had no attraction to. Partially because it was... him! We had been neighbors for a year, he was immature, and just not too bright. He was the last person I ever planned to sleep with.
I guess eventually I'll find this funny.
Lol.

 

all I have to say is:
wow. *shakes head*

 

hey i have no issue with what u did.. guess what its a free country.. so what u slept with someone.. u did it.. its over.. if u dont like the guy after this thats understandable but u were horny and u slept with someone no one should judge u for it

 

There's nothing wrong with casual fuckin, as long as you're safe, but I promise that you will always regret losing your virginity this way.


Out of curiosity....how old is your brother?

 

yeah I basically agree
only I think it's kinda gross to go around sleeping wiht people you aren't attracted to =/

and I was wondering that as well

 

I wish I was your neighbor!!

 

dude...i casually fuck people all the time...technically 3 times a week...you don't have to like someone to fuck them...cause i don't like any of the guys that i've ever fucked except my friend with benifits and my new friend with benifits...i kinda sound like a whore now but it's true...

 

^ nah, whores get paid

 

Hah yeah. I'm pro-free love, anti-traditional morals. I don't regret a thing about it. Lol. Sure come be my neighbor

 

man you put a lot of effort into that post.

 

sometimes your body is just ready for something and you can't ignore the compulsion. it was the same way for me when i decided to have a baby. it's biological.

 

Makes sense.

 

no reason you should ever regret that

you just made the teenage boys that post here jealous, so they had to retaliate with something

Its why girls often go for older guys, something that never changes

 

She may or may not regret it, but I'm a guy, and I would regret it. When she finds someone she really cares about, she'll wish she had waited. I waited 22 years to have sex, because I wanted my first time to be with someone I love.

Everyone is different though, so whatever. If Woodstock's happy, then I'm happy for her.

 

I am too curious as to how old is your brother? As for the lost virginity, they can't all be romance novel stories. Maybe it wasn't an ideal situation for all, and maybe one day you will regret it, but it's done and over with and that's that.

 

I found the little brother being next to you thing rather disturbing. Otherwise, rock on!

 

Dont listen to any of this crap about regretting it later! I wish people wouldnt guess what other people will feel later.
Like mr mojo says, rock on

 

yeah, everybody is different. i wouldn't wait 22 years for jesus christ himself...no freakin way.

 

I just think it's sort of sad she used the word "finally". She's all of 16...