I feel like I'm going to die.

Does anyone else feel like they will not live to see the new year? Every year I feel this way. I always seem to be thinking that I will die within the next couple of months, because I live really unhealthy and take unnecessary risks. Also, I have IMAGINED health problems, such as heart arythmias, heart murmurs, blood clots, high blood pressure, palpatations and a whole slew of other IMAGINED problems that I have not been diagnosed with.

When I'm not thinking about dying, I always see myself getting arrested and going to jail for a long period of time. These thoughts about jail would probably subside if I would just quit commiting crimes everyday.

Maybe I just need some therapy or something. Who knows.

 

nope, I´m making plans for the summer...
hopefully I´ll still be alive then.
Are you depressed, or have you hypochondria?
...or maybee you can predict the future? (the way it sounds...you will probably end up in jail.)

 

I know I'll end up in jail. But as for the imagined health problems, I have to get health insurance before I can see a physician or a psychiatrist. I used to be depressed, but I don't think I am anymore. I guess I'll figure it out sooner or later.

 

So do you WANT to end up i jail? Thats not much of a future is it? ...why dont you do somethiing about it?
Like the art in your sig. by the way, Naoto Hattori. keeewl

 

It is not the crime that puts you in jail - it is the getting caught - haw careful are you being - people who tell me that they are heading for jail scare me - they tend to do things that make it come true - how self destructive are you being - not any of my business of course but you might want to think about it.

 

of course its the crime, if you never commit the crime, you would never get caught..... and end up in jail.

 

lay of the drugs

 

Jail’s not that bad - all that negative HBO "OZ" stuff is exaggerated, a punk is a punk, inside or out; just stand up for yourself and you'll be fine. The first time anybody fucks with you - fight - no matter how many there r and no matter how big they are, and no matter how bad you get beaten, fight until you cant stand up anymore - u do that once, and you'll never have 2 do it again

 

TopNotch, ever since I was a little girl, I always told my mother that I would never live to be old. This bothered her to no end, but looking back I think it was more of a self protection method because I couldn't stand the thought of being alive and watching all of my loved ones die in front of me, leaving me alone, abandoned, heading closer to the inevitable mortality that all of us face.

I tend to be a hypochondriac, I get paranoid over every little ailment that may affect my family or myself. I suppose I am just so terrified of how fragile life really is. I nearly died two years ago after the birth of my twins, which has made me even more fearful, because it just goes to show that you never know when your time on this earth is up. I was an extremely healthy young woman, suddenly facing death in the ICU of a hospital, clinging to life by a thread. No one would have ever expected it.

Anyway, I can relate somewhat to your fears. But, you just can't let it get the best of you, or you will live a miserable life of paranoia obsessing over your inevitable mortality instead of enjoying the time you have here now.

{{{Hugs}}}

 

Oh, and lay off the life of crime, would you?

 

I did one of those online health surveys that tell you how long you are going to live. It predicted that I was going to die in 2006...yeah.

 

One of those surveys predicted that I would die in 2009. That gave me hope of a longer life than I was expecting. I can't help the daily crimes, I steal something everytime I leave the house. I steal everything from gas for the car to hundreds of dollars worth of food at one time. I think I'm a kleptomaniac. But I'm proud to say that I've never committed a crime against another person.

I don't really do hard drugs. The hardest drug that I actually LIKE is xanax, and I've cut back a lot on that.

I do feel that I might me somewhat of a hypochondriac. Because throughout my life I have imagined so many health problems and none of them af been confirmed by physicians.

About the whole fear thing. I wouldn't say that I'm afraid of dying or of going to jail. It's more a feeling of inevitability. I feel that it's going to happen, no matter what I do, so I just accept it. Since I started feeling this way I seem to be viewing life from a more philosophical point of view, and am trying to find the way that I can be the happiest when the time comes that I actually do have something to worry about.

 

What type of herb are you smoking?
I love the shit that makes me feel the way you do right now.

 

Mine said I was dead years ago.

 

Georgia homegrown.