I don't think I want to fall in love.

Yeah.
I mean, I really really fucking want love. I want someone that will love me just as much as I love them, and not a bit less, and I want to be able to curl up in their arms, but I don't want to give myself to someone.
I gave my heart and soul to two people who left my life. I don't want to make a mistake again.

Am I just being an idiot? Because at times I get the feeling I am, but then heart ache backs me up and says "fuck that shit".

 

Totally just have sex

 

No.
That is a straight up no.
I'm not having sex with anyone I'm not mutually in love with. It's not fair to me, nor the other person.

 

Ick.

This is too gooey for me

 

Are you from Bolivia or Missouri?

 

Your just a confused girl.

 

you cant plan on not fallin in love though.. it just happens

 

Nah, you're just a human who has had heart ache, and now like most people do, or will do, have some baggage.

What you've said sounds quite rational, you're not denying that love is good. But you're also being fair on yourself saying you're scared because of how it has turned out before. So you're not being an idiot, just honest.

I think the solution is (and by no means accept this as correct if you dont like it) is to maybe just accept that at the moment you have some stuff to work out because of your previous experiances (and life in general leaves us with atleast some issues) and focus more on yourself then intimate relationships.

It doesn't mean you have to reject the idea right out, hell you can even date but keep some distance in the relationship, it just means maybe in the mean time, don't put too much stress into the idea of being with some one and conserve your energy to just improving your life as an individual.

 

Its ok i seem to feel the same way.

 

Right. Falling is falling. Jumping is jumping.

 

I would like to dive head first into love.

 

You seem to fairly exude a romanticized view of love, like something you "can't resist", and that "happens to you". That's fine, but there comes a time when you make the choice WHO to give yourself to, and it takes more time and life experience to come to that point.

Don't believe all the chick movies out there. Don't believe anything with Meg Ryan, Sandra Bullock, or Julia Roberts.

When your time comes, the guy for you will be there. Maybe not a hometown guy, but someone you meet during your travels, when you get to the point where you can get out of small-town USA, and see the world a bit more.

It's hard to see things from Potosi. It's a very narrow view. You need your view expanded. Learn some languages. Expand your world vision. Don't depend on the "white knight" to come and sweep you offa yer feet. Concentrate on learning, and becoming a more well-rounded person. Otherwise, you'll just meet someone local, maybe a farmer or something, and you'll become a prisoner for life. Don't do that. At least don't do that unless that's your informed choice. Expand your options, THEN make a choice.

 

Look before you leap, otherwise you might just hit your head on the bottom of the pool. It happens.

 

Me too, when you are trying to meet someone they call it "game" that by definition turns me off, I am done playing games.

 

Has it been a month since your last true love/virginity /sex post already??
wow. time flies. I look forward to your next hormonal "look at me , I'm ovulating" post

 

Let's see,,is this the one,,

 

Missouri.
And I don't actually live in Potosi. I live 2 hours north of it. my grandpa lives there and I just really love it down there.

 

Not nice. But funny.

sorry, Flannelwearin'gal, it could be inaccurate, but it sounds funny.

 

LOL, exactly, "Love" for 4 days every 28 days

 

That’s a rather romantic view of the world but rather naïve; consistent with old world victorian ideals which were typically high & mighty but not practical and rarely attainable

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