I am being mangled

Yup
mangled and disfigured

by the society I have placed myself in UGH

Im tired of flexing to meet someone elses deadlines and needs

mother fuck

I wanna get out

 

don't we all. but i did not place myself in this society. i was placed here against my will. in fact, i tried to escape it to no avail.

 

You're all too vague.

 

I say I placed myself in it, because I chose to go to this college in this town .

 

ugh, I know what you mean

 

Hahaha lets make angry faces together. Damn, ya. I dont like being pushed around in this town.

 

theres always time to find a better place to go to

 

I dont even know what is what Im doing in Ottawa.
Lesson learned: Do not pick a place to study randomly.
Can I just go to sleep and wake up when it's all over?

 

Oh my god! Mine was random too! Everyday I am considering leaving and changing my situation up, but I will get my diploma if I can just...deal...

 

Exact same situation and dealing with it is not easy. College itself is not the problem, I think is the combination of the people and the place. Plus, I miss my boyfriend. Plus, I hate my roommate.
I could keep this going forever :tongue:

 

Ive been to 3 different colleges. If you dont like it there, maybe you should transfer? If I lived in canada I would be going straight to vancouver.

 

Thats the plan for later. Its because Im in the student council. Doing awesome stuff for the school and students (charities, etc). And thats the reason I stayed.

 

Ive seen your posts about that, youre probably overextending yourself. It will pay off though.

 

I am seriously overextending. I would rather just have the job.

 

No, jobs suck too. The key is finding the time to remind yourself youre alive, and finding things youre passionate about.

 

You are very right. Why did you move around so muc ? Are you feeling alive now?

 

Probably a combo of wanderlust and a semi dark past. Its weird because part of me just wants to settle down so to speak, but I'm probably about to move again. And as far as feeling alive, Ive had moments. At a spot in nature, good friends, a lover, drugs. It seems like most of the time though, Im working towards it. I think my hopes and dreams keep me alive more than anything as cliche as that sounds.

 

Its not cliche. I am the same way, as Im sure most others are. I am stricken with serious wanderlust. I dont give a shit about my program...

 

i'm sorry you're being mangled cate
i totally think if you're unhappy, get the fuck out
transfer somewhere else, you can take the credits you've earned and move to a different school

next time we hang out we should get our nails done, or something like that equally girlie
you're kinda the only one keeping me girlie, i needed it
i hang around guys too much and i get rather vulgar around here