well i always think/dream/daydream all the time about how my life would be different, like if i had a "rich" family, or if i won the lotto, or if i lived in california, or if i started over at my school and no one knew me, or if i was a completely different person and i never existed, and there are more but u get what i'm saying.well i just wanted to confess what i always think about. peace liz
that's kinda sad you should be happy with your own life and most people I know who have a lot of money aren't happy. I can tell you though that California eally sucks I live in San Diego-the people are fake and the beach is gorgeous but everything around it is over developed.
i'm happy w/ my life and i don't think money is everything but i would atleast know i could go to college and not have to think how the fuck would i pay for it and know i have a car when i'm sixteen plus the only reason i would every want alot of money is so i donate it and also to buy some land with a lake and fourwheels stuff like that. not becuase i need a new pair of shoes nothing like that.
go to a state university and take out loans. my mom wouldn't pay for private university unless I got a partial scholarship...which I didn't. Not everyone gets everything they want in life ya know? You just have to be happy with what you have.
my life ain't that great but i'm fine with it i mean my life barely started but my life hasn't been the best, abusive, suicidal, uber-alcoholic dad that died of diabetes like 2 years ago, a mean ass little sister. a mom with a shitty job that can barely afford food and clothes for us that gets paid like 1% more than government aid requires, and my 22 year old loser brother works at domino's and still lives at home (he's pretty cool though). All you gotta do is keep on doin shit. Just make everything as fun as it can be. Joke around alot only be serious when need be. Jason Alexander once said, "Don't avoid pain. It's a part of life. It helps you know you're alive. Rejection, frustration, disappointment, anger, unrequited love... it all hurts. And it heals. So never run from pain. Just run to those who are in it with an open heart.'"
i often wonder what it would be like if my dad hadn't died, because then i might not have gotten ill adn we wouldn't be sad now and he would be able to see wh i turned out to be. thats the only thing i really wonder about.