(This was before I took anything) I was depressed, I wanted to die. I felt as though I had no friends when I actually did. I was extremely unhappy. So I thought to myself something along the lines of "perhaps a psychedelic drug would provide an enlightening experience". I had absolutely no experience with drugs. I'd never tried any psychedelic drug, marijuana, stimulants, nothing. I'd always been intrigued by LSD; so I looked into it and discovered something called LSA. After doing research on the internet for a month or so, I ordered some Hawaiian strain Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds. I took 10, which probably was too many for a first time. I felt really bad for a while. I was laying on a couch, watching tv, not feeling any effects. It was just something I didn't notice until a little bit came on. I knew I was tripping then. The trip was really enjoyable... until I started panicking. I felt my pulse and told myself I was going to die. (And for any potential HBWR/MG trippers, don't take your pulse or think about vasoconstriction... that's a recipe for disaster.) I legitimately thought I was going to die. During this time, I recognized how great my life actually was, I wished I had it back (because I thought I was going to die for real.) This lasted for about 1/2 hour to an hour, and after it ended, I was enlightened. It made me so grateful for life. Everyday I wake up and say to myself "I am so happy I'm alive." and continue throughout the day grateful. I think I got really lucky with these. It could've messed up my entire life, given me mental problems for the rest of my life, but instead I got this great enlightenment. I think that this could have been done differently, and I'm not sure I would recommend it to anybody, but I do know it helped me immensely. I'm now, after about 8 months, prepared to go again. I'm going to take either 5 or 6 HBWR seeds, know that I'm not going to die, and have an amazing trip. Regardless, this is an excellent point to the medicinal value of psychedelics. We don't take them to "be as high as a kite"; we take them for the betterment of our minds and ourselves as a person overall. I think that the government is incorrect in saying it has no medicinal value. This has truely saved my life. I probably would have been dead right now had I now had an eye opener on life.
I wonder if it's the psychedelic itself that changed your insight, or the fact that you thought you were going to die. Either way, they were a part of it. They work in mysterious ways sometimes. Happy trails!
Yeah I kind of questioned that myself. I think that it's a combination of both. Either way, I'm just so grateful. I think of everyday I live as an extra day. I think that I could say that psychedelics saved my life.
There was a Muslim man on the radio the other day that was talking about how we are unhappy as a society because we are raised to believe that life will be beautiful and all little girls will be princesses and all little boys will be kings. The white picket fence, the American dream, and everything that comes with it. He was saying that these things bring about false expectations about what life is really like, and that when we reach a certain age, we end up feeling sorry for ourselves because we were tricked into believing that the world somehow owes us something. He followed that the correct way to view things is understanding right from the get go that the nature of life is difficult and unfair, and that everything good that happens to us is a true blessing that we should be grateful for. This talk actually changed my life and if I ever have children, I plan to pass this down to them. Gratitude is everything.
Shivaya, that has been one of my forum names, good job supreme abode of peace and enlightenment, Om namah shivaya! life is not "unfair" or "hard" or "easy" or "we think we'll be princesses" each person's perspective is vastly different, we take incarnation into a society in a time period, you could be a serf in france but you're not, you could be ghandi but you are only becoming him unless you made it ! some are born rich some are poor, this is due to reincarnation, the lessons a soul wishes to learn, and karma, and i doubt, Shivaya, that a Muslim or most religions understand the true reality of God, I know I don't but I know the higher pathways work, the kingdom of heaven is inside us as Jesus said, as all religions have taught, meditation, if you have time to meditate you are not that unlucky in life are you ? not a little girl making barbies for 20 cents an hour all day long , or 20 cents a day, so little girls in america can play with , well, a barbie doll made by enslaved little girls so , depression is inserted into the BLESSED of us, ( that's you probably ) via society's bullshit, sure, but all you need to do is be still and meditate, and , its more beneficial to chant OM than to sit and contemplate "not thinking", that's the slowest way i don't advise lsa seeds because they have the pain in the body effect, they can induce euphoria but the last ones i had were just a visual experience, no happiness, all my other experiences were pure bliss, and why not take 3 and see how it is not 10 ? that's what society does to teenagers, i hardly ever see people recommend a first time hbwr dose of 1-4 seeds, but why not ? its really not a good idea to take more than 3 until you see if you enjoy it, and please don't watch tv on lsa. tv is usually a cesspool of absolute delusions, illusions, and nasty things, but sometimes wisdom exists on it. in a way its also a great blessing we have tv, we can tune into tele-vision any time we want, but is there anything wonderful on it ? only if we are happy and satisfied. happy and satisfied is from thinking good thoughts, eating right, learning yoga so you don't be a debilitated old man/woman when you grow "old" and be free forever from body pains and aches and meditate, ideally, chant an enlightenment mantra, they work.
Namaste, as I stated, I should have taken a dose of 7-8 or so, not 10. It was a mistake, but it still vastly (in a positive sense) changed my perspective of life. I can't change that I took 10, and it had an ending positive effect on me, so why complain? And I doubt that 3 HBWR seeds would do anything other than a simple buzz and the body load, which would probably just discourage taking HBWR. For a first dose I would say 5-7 seeds, depending on if you've ever taken another psychedelic before. I feel as though you're insulting me.... "why not take 3 and see how it is not 10 ? that's what society does to teenagers" I never said that I would recommend that to others. I bet that somebody who would take 3 HBWR seeds would just be doing it to "get high", which is an ignorant, irresponsible reason to take psychedelics. Don't misinterpret things, and don't go insulting people without making sure people are saying what you think they are, especially if they realize their mistake.
I was talking about generally, in the western world. There are people in slums in India that are happier than most westerners will ever be. Why? Because they have learned to see anything that keeps them alive for another day as nothing short of a blessing. They are grateful for the time spent with their loved ones, for a meal, for the opportunity to help each other. We on the other hands, have gotten lost in our wants and needs.
