HOW IS YOUR INDIVIDUAL LIFE ( at the moment )

are you happy? sad? confused? about living on this planet with all its world issues right at this moment ........and are you content? happy? sad ?confused ? with your personal life journey at this moment in time ..............................................me..... am just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round :spliff:

 

for me it seems to depend on the day. i am very content with my life. quite happy with the situation i'm in all together. feel sad about a lot of stuff going on in the world, but also feel (because of a lot of my own issues) very powerless to make any great changes or even big ripples in the ocean of life.

so .. well ... i guess i'm sort of coasting along, riding the tide ... bit like a sea turtle.

 

my mood deteriorated today. was workin an got told off twice and hadnt done anything wrong... then ended day with a letter about a disciplinary hearing theyre giving me for 'unauthorised absence' because i stayed in kent on saturday after my grandpas funeral on friday without there being anyone to cover my shift. they let another girl have a week off and theyre disciplining me because there was noone to cover my shift and they wanted me to get train up from kent to wales instead of driving back up with rest of family on monday. arseholes. photocopied pages from the company handbook earlier and just finished writing a two page letter to them

 

Sad and confused - worried I may come to the end of my life with no greater appreciation of this world than I came into it with - plus not giving anything of consequence.

 

I'm anxious and excited for things to come. I feel like things are moving to fast though. I've been feeling kind of melancholy about graduating only becuase I have no idea where the last four years of my life have gone. I've also been very lonely lately...

 

Been ill with m.e for 3 years.. can't say i'm too happy >_> I had to actually be helped standing up this morning as my muscles were so fucked up -.-

So meh.. pretty pissed off but trying to be as happy as poss

 

It does depend on the day, but this past few moths have been very intense and I've been taking big life decisions and been trhu a lot bur it all seems to be going in the right direction and the good outweights the bad.
I think I've never felt like I've grown so much as in this past few motnhs or learned so much about life and the person who I can be, if I want to.
I've found great love, im moving into Ottawa in a few weeks, and that's exciting enough finally leaving my little island in the sun (its great, but I've always felt I needed more) and going to do something I like.. so yeah, happy
tho when I think about the world and the human race.. not so happy, it's crazy out there but there are some amazing few doing amazing things.

 

aww hunny i know you sure have grown & amazed me & my life at this momment couldnt possibly be better either & i have you & sunshine to thank for that

to answer the question im happier then i ever dreammed id be

 

I am doing exceptionally well. When I first became disabled I had a hard time dealing. Some days still do but I have come to learn that the best way to get passed something is to accept it and then work with little victories. I do get frustrated when I think I should be doing as much as I used to but now I can just be. This is a wonderful learning experience for me. I think I need summer year 'round.

 

Good question/topic. As most..depends on each day. However..I have much to be thankful for I suppose. I have a good job, nice car and money usually to do as I wish. Im not the ugliest dude in the world so Im hoping my single status will change in due time. That is the only thing that tends to bum me out sometimes. I suffer from depression at times..jus with the way the world is at times and how cruel/slefish some people are. However I try to keep a positive attitude for myself. Over all I would be selfish to say I dont have it better than many. Yet of course I have much I still think I hope for in my future..love..Exp..travelling ..etc And let's face it. w.o love things seem pretty meaningless and daunting at times Im sure most will agree.

 

i'm so fucking pleased with my life right now i can't even believe it. fucking AWESOME. can i say fuck again? OF COURSE I CAN!! FUCKING AWESOME.


no, seriously. i'm not joking. i'm happier than a pig in shit.

 

Ah KC, you make me laugh.

 

see, one more thing to be fucking pleased with. now if y'all will excuse me, 'm going to go swimming with my family. yeehaw!!

 

Life, in general, at the moment, for me, personally, sucks huge donkey balls.
Things will undoubtedly pick up, but until then it's a bit shit.
1) I just got ditched by one who I *thought* loved me and etc. But turns out she didn't. Ain't it a kick in the teeth?
2) I lack direction. I want to emigrate to Canada but I lack a) money and b) qualifications. Nothing I'm even remotely interested in doing (alternative health stuff) would cut any ice whatsoever with the Immigration services. To them I'd just be a penniless hippy bum.
And even if I did get in, if I didn't live their button-down, square-bear house-mortgage-car-insurance-debt-credit card-death lifestyle, they'd revoke my visa. Ain't it a kick in the teeth?

 

Returning to contentment.

 

I suppose being unemployed has been a major drop back in my life at present. It is integral to one's life to work. One has to earn a living, they cannot just sponge off the state forever. There will come a time for me to make a crucial decision, even if I do end up having to come off benefits and trying to survive.

I currently see a vision, one is often wondering whether my vision is clear or not, but all I can say to those who ask me is this; There is a time when I will atlast gain a foothold onto the fundemental things of life. New friends, new person and a new prospect. But I learn from history and that everything good must come to an end. I often use the Axe of Damaclease to my inquisitive audience. Happiness is only temporary. We are no more than an inch away from total degradation, suffering and pain. Not just our pain, but the trials and tribulations of others.

Meanwhile, I am now back on New deal. I know that this may prove to be yet another experience that will suck but, I am open minded enough to allow myself to go through it in the hope that maybe, I may have a new opportunity.

My life is perhaps normal to most people living alone in the capital of suburbia. One who is unemployed, marginalised and well you know, often feeling doubtful and bitter. Guess seven years in society has opened up my eyes. Given me a new perspective and all.

Emotions, I try to fight depression. It is a daily war, but so far I am feeling generally okey.

 

im quite horrible

 

I'm pretty content at the moment. I've got a job and I'm moving out in 2 weeks, which means I will have more of a social life. My friend, who I haven't seen for 2 years, is back from Brazil and her brother will be back in 2 weeks and therefore serious partying is to be had!

 

I thought you looked like a bit of a wanker - but now I feel a bit sorry for you.
I'm sorry that you are not well - my cousin has M.E and I know it is a bit of a bitch -

all the best

Matt.

 

I am ecstatic as it wont be long before the government actually just goes a bit too far and all you deadheads wake up and see you are trapped and being dictated to.
hahahaha it wont be long before theres more anarchists than police - then they will have to call it civil war !