How I feel, right or wrong?

my fiance wrote this to me as he sits in jail over some bullshit...

A couple minits ago a tear fell from my right eye. It his the cement floor of my cell. As I looked at the tear i thought about how many different feelings and emotions i was experiencing as that tear left my eye. Lonelieness, pain, sorrow, loss, misery and rage. The tear that is between my two feet as i wright this holds all these emotions. I would not wish these emotions on my worst enemy, yet people that misunderstand me or see me as there enemy have no regard or seem to car about this pain that i endure on a daily basis. The question is do i deserve these things for making a mistake or breaking the laws of man? or how about if i was a multi billionaire or was a judges son, would i be locked in this cell 23 hours a day? How about if it was costing them money, instead of making them money? These people are not concerned with my well being or rehibilitating me. Nor are they concerned with the impact this has on my family. the way im punished is desided by how much money they can make themselves or the people that controll them. and how there judgement on me will be seen by those who keep them in a position of power. The bottom line, if they were not benifitting from me (and others like me) i would not be sitting in this cell. The society we live in is ran by the power of money. Instead of Honor, respect, and love. Some countries have no prisons? why? because they were raised different. they were taight to keep there word, to stand up for there beliefs, to show loyalty, respect and honor to others. We grow up in this society and all we hear about is money, murders, violence and betrayal. when we should of been hearing about love, respect, honor, and loyalty. i use these words because they mean alot to me and they are powerful. i look for these qualities in the people im around. and i have 4 people in my life that i see these qualities in. I so grateful to have them. and i hope they understand me and see these qualites in me.ive made mistakes, and i can call my faults mistakes because i have learned from them. i learn as much as i can and try with all my heart everyday to be a better person. and help the ones i love to use there mind to become stronger. you are very lucky to have a handfull of people that love you and that wouldnt betray or turn there back on you.

 

Jail sucks big time. I just practiced meditation and turned off my emotions while I was there. How much time does he have left?

 

3 more months which isnt bad... but its still all bullshit

 

im sorry sweetie, i had s loved one in jail once and then rehab lets just say it was the worst 6months of my life, but in the end we got thru it as longs as their love between the both of you, this will happen quickly

 

3 months? How long has he been there? I mean no offence Im just wondering. Everyone handles prison time in their own way

 

hes been there 3 months already... hes maxing out his paroll.. which is up in november

 

Was it not HIS actions that impacted the family.

He needs to get over himself, both ego and emotions.

This is good advice.

Ah, the subtle arts of manipulation. OP, can you "see" it??

Although I agree with some of his points (including the remarks regarding our prison-culture), this whole letter actually reeks of subtle manipulation. I cast no judgement on someone in jail (or prison), but people that play the victim role (consciously or subconsciously) are usually very unhealthy individuals. I would encourage you to think about your association with this individual. Best wishes.

 

Why would you share a private letter your fiance wrote to you with the Internet?

How you feel is regardless at this point. Invasion of privacy is grounds for breaking up.

 

! Im on parole for the next 3 and 1/2 years :tongue:

 

what did he even do?

I also agree with the above invasion of privacy and the ignoring emotions thing.

 

im a scientist

 

What did he do? I apologize if I sound harsh, but his letter sounds a bit egotistical and it seems like he is unable to take responsibility for his own actions.
Of course my opinion is based on not knowing his offense. If it was a victimless crime, I agree with him.

 

I didnt put this up here to invade his privacy nor did i put it up here to ignore any emotions... I simply put this on here so that people could learn from it... I guess my point of view is a little bit different then some of yours... but im into mind expansion and always trying to fill up my mind with knowledge and wisdom... and whats the best way to gain that? by learning from other people... I guess I shouldnt of put the acctual letter on here, I should have summed it up in my own words but I wasn't thinking about that at the time.... My interpertation of this is that our society now is prolly worst that its ever been... I am 17 and I must say that I am very much older than my actual age, mentally... I know that, everyone that knows me knows that... but I look at other people my age, and the ages 12-18 mostly... and I notice that none of them have no respect... what happened to respecting your elders, others and oneself... what happened to honor towards those you are close to... having loyalty and integrity for others and towards yourself... i know times have changed and i dont believe for the better... Im scared for my childs life because it is getting so bad... (which i dont have a child yet) take a look around and just observe the world around you and when i do i notice a "united" country that is deteriorating and going against all morals and i see things slowly getting away from tradition... which some change is good but thats my opinion also but the main things that i think should always be in tradition is having those few qualities respect, love, honor, and loyalty... because those are powerful words and they do mean alot if you think about it... its free, its something no one can take away from you, its something that i feel is "real" in my life and maybe some of you do too... beacause there aint too much that is "real" anymore.the truth.

 

what did he do?

 

by the way... he did nothing wrong... he was doing soooo good and i was so proud of him... its just the county we live in just wont leave him alone, they want him off the streets when he aint really on them if you know what i mean... he is a good man... yall can have your opinions about him.. but i see him as a very strong man and he has been through alot... me and him are compatable... he doesnt need to be sitting there right now... there are worse people that could be where he is now.... people sitting on there asses, gaining welfare money every month, spending all there money on beer and drugs, not taking care of there kids... then there are people like my fiance... who did make a few mistakes but are trying to do the right thing and live there life right and wanting to settle down and start our life... but police and probation officers dont want to leave him alone... its sickning really

 

im dieing to know what his charges are

 

Do you love Jesus by any chance?

 

i love the monkey christ like i love a pimple

 

Good deeds seldom go noticed, mistakes are remembered for a lifetime.

 

I am also curious to hear about countries that don't have prisons... where are those located?

We even have prisons here on the moon.